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Jimin ~ If Only

You walked the halls of your school, giving attention to those who you knew throughout the years of your stay. You remembered your suitor for 2 years, Park Jimin.

You met him at a cafe, he was new there since you were always there to hang out or just do your homeworks there. He casually went to you and sat down at your front.

"Hi. I'll seat here, okay?" He smiled as he placed his belongings to the chair parallel to you and went to the counter to order his preferred drink. You were confused as he said that, you looked around the cafe you were in just to find that there were many vacant seats. You cautiously looked at the man at the counter and back to his belongings infront of you.

What if he's some guy that wanted some information about me and kill me afterwards?

You thought, you were drowned by books and fiction and that basically explains why you made such conclusion to a innocent looking guy that wanted to sit opposite to you.

The idea of you dead in the mans arms was immediately erased as you heard some shuffling sounds infront of you, you blinked your eyes as you stared at the man infront of you with a slight smile, a drink in his hand and placed it at the wooden table you two shared.

"Thanks for making me sit here." He smiled, isn't he tired of smiling too much?

"You didn't even asked me if I mind or not." You wanted to be nice but his actions was irritating the hell out of you. You wanted him to leave because he just ruined your quality time wih yourself. But even with this attitude, he smiled brightly and sipped his drink by leaning over to the drink instead of grabbing the drink.

"It feels so refreshing not to have a girl scream her head off, I like your attitude, miss?" You raised an eyebrow to him, his attitude so arrogant that you wanted to splash him with humbleness so he can be atleast close to being decent.

"I'm asking your name." He said, calmly handling your attitude with ease and it annoyed you. It didn't shoo him away and in fact you think it attracted him more. You groaned, giving up the act and said your name, which made him smile.

"There are, in fact, many other available seats over there but you chose to sit here and annoy the heck out of me. What do you need?" You snapped, glaring at him with fury. You wanted silence and peace but obviously this man was the one who ruined it.

"I'm Park Jimin." He completely ignored your rant. You scowled at him and ignored him also, focusing your eyesight on the book you were reading before he came. You just stared at the page you left on, distracted by the presence of a arrogant man infront of you.

This man, well, Park Jimin, doesn't know the word 'give up', so he bothered you by asking questions that made no sense to you. After that encounter, you coincidentally bump into each other in the next few weeks, and that started the friendship that turned into courting.

And now, you were ready to fall in love. You were ready to face the consequences of love, which is pain. The love for Jimin grew for the past 2 years as you saw a great ton of effort showered onto the things he did just for you. He made your heart leap many times and you feel like your in cloud 9 whenever he stares at you with loving eyes. He made your world filled with adventures which you had learned and discovered many things you didn't know about him and yourself. He made you stronger everyday, he was your one and only life line.

It may sound cringy but that was how you felt, and you know once Jimin left you or what, you would be dead.

You mustered up your strength and chose to find the man of your life. You searched through the classroom, the empty ones, the cafeteria, the nurses office, but not the rooftop.

For the past few days he was avoiding you. You knew that since if he has a problem he would tell it to you right away but he didn't this time.

Did he finally gave up on me?

You shook your head and filled your thoughts with a positive mindset. You finally found Jimin, he was in the rooftop talking to someone. You peeked from the wall and you saw exactly who was Jimin talking to, it was the 'Angelic Girl' of the campus.

She was described as nice, kind to others, help the students in need, a perfect role model, has sexy curves, long black hair, and black bright eyes that seems that you could drown in them.

As you glanced at Jimin, you saw the love in his eyes that was the same you had experienced when you were with him.

Jimin's already drowned by her eyes, how pathetic is your love life, y/n?

A sharp pain surged to your heart as you heard the words that rolled off Jimin's tongue.

"I love you, okay? I was tired of waiting for y/n and I realized, I still love you. Even you ignored me for my feelings for you in the past, I still love you. I love you so, so much until now. How did you do that?"

Another pang of pain was felt in your heart, your whole body numb at what he said. Ears malfunctioning, visions blurry.

Just as you were about to confess that you loved him, he grew tired of you. He was tired of waiting. You lowered your gaze and walked to the door.

The girl was the one he used to like before you. He was ignored by the girl and after weeks, he said he liked you and courted you. And now to piece it up what happened, you were being used. Used to patch up the missing pieces that were required for him to go back to the one he truly loves. He doesn't love you.

You silently cried, shuffling towards the bathroom and locked the door.

Great timing. The one I love now has somebody else.

You wished you can go back in time to feel what you felt before, to experience what you had experienced, to feel the love he gave for you, and nobody else. You wanted it to rewind, but it was achingly impossible, it's impossible now to return to the past.

If only you realized your feelings earlier,

If only you tried to be more appreciative to his unending efforts,

If only you considered his feelings for you,

If only.

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