student/teacher pregnancy

chapter 18 going home

Sasha's p.o.v (picture of Sasha)

let me introduce myself I am Sasha and I am 17 and I love to read and I have brown hair and brown eyes and I'm light-skinned and I'm 5'9 and I'm in high school i'm a senior and I go to Marshall's high school and I have a son he's 3 his name is Kiyan adkinson Mariana

no one knows about him I had him when I was 14 and I live in Florida and l love school it's my way to escape my so-called *home* like where we bake cookies and watch movies and have family time (aha that's a lie) and I kept Kiyan with me at school they allowed babies there because there is a daycare built into it,I love to sing,I can sing well I want to join music class when I get in high school but my mamma wouldn't let me because she needed me home to do things for my dad and they gave me up to men for sex and money and they would give me $500 to $400 to keep my mouth shut and I would sneak some in my shoe box under my bed and I started saving up and my son is my everything one of my dads friends raped me and I got pregnant and I didn't want to abort my baby because that's wrong my parents said I can keep my baby as long as I don't stop *working* and as for Kiyan I wanted him to stay in his room with the door locked I kept it locked I'm the only one who has a key to it because I don't trust any drug dealers or sex craving men or my parents in my son's room 

we arrived at the house and I walked in and I ran up the stairs to my room and I grabbed my money I stuffed it in my bag and I grabbed all of my clothes and pants,socks,underwear I put them in a duffel bag and I grabbed my jewelry and I put it on and I walked into Kiyan's room and grabbed all my sons shoes,socks,diapers,toys and I put it in a backpack and I grabbed him and put him a shirt,pants,shoes on I walked out of the house with my son and my 2 bags I just walked out because I knew my *parents* would notice I'm gone but oh well they don't give a damn about me anyway so I just snuck out and locked the door and stared at my so called house and I started walking to the car and Eliza came out and grabbed my bags and Kiyan he stared at me and smiled and I put his booster seat in the car and I put the bags in the trunk and I put him in his booster seat and he started crying and he started reaching for me and I sighed and grabbed his binky and he started sucking on it and he started to drift off to sleep

*who is this* Nate said I looked at Kiyan and I smiled at him

*my son* I said

*He's so cute* he said

*Thank you* I said smiling at him

*so Sasha what are your plans for high school* Nate said and I thought about it for a minute and spoke

*I uh I dropped out when I was in 10th grade because I had to take care of son so I really didn't have any plans* I said looking down 

*well uh we can get you to take online classes will that help?* he questioned and he looked at Eliza as if to ask for permission and he smiled at him and she looked back at me and nodded and smiled

*Thank you Nate and Eliza for helping me* I said

*You're welcome* they both said and I put my headphones in I started singing quietly making sure to not wake up Kiyan

she was only 6 years old when her daddy started hitting her because he had a little too much to drink and mamma didn't want her to feel the pain she felt but she still felt the pain and 10 years went and daddy went and she tried to find love in other men and her daughter hid behind the dresser because her daddy would hit her and she thinks about what them girls said as tears stream from her eyes she's lost and she's scared I have nowhere else to go I don't know if I can make it much longer so if there's a God out there please here my prayers and I'm lost and scared I don't have anywhere else to go I'm not sure if I can make it much longer so if your listening could you give a helping hand to your daughter her past started to change she reached out to touch God's hand and she started to change and she had one drink and one thing led to another and 9 months later she had a baby and she doesn't know where to go I'm not sure if I can be a good mother could you give me a helping hand to her daughter I became her pride and joy after all no man could fix the pieces but one can God so as she lay there on the bed she grabbed God's hand and she has no clue what to do so if your lost and afraid don't worry child because there is a father who will love you as his own just like he loved his daughter when that baby grew he became her pride and joy her heart became peaceful and at 93 she grabbed her sons hand and said there is a God out there and he sent me you so if your lost and afraid and if you feel lost there is a God out there and he will love you like he loved his daughter his daughter by molly Kate kestner I started crying and I wiped my tears away as I looked out the window staring at the trees and cars.

an hour later

*we are here* Eliza said and I held Kiyan and got out and bent down to grab his diaper bag,I put it on my back and I handed kiyan to Eliza and I walked to the trunk and I grabbed the bags,I walked back into the house and sat the bags down on the ground

*Okay I'm going to take him now* I said to Eliza and I took him and I held kiyan close to my chest

*Come on I'll show you to the guest room you can stay in their and Kiyan can stay with you* I heard Nate say

*okay is it okay with Eliza* I asked

*Yeah it's Eliza's house* he said

*wow it's so clean and homey* I said smiling

*yeah she's a clean freak that's for sure* he said chuckling

*I bet I was always a clean freak I didn't like messes on the floor and my....parents didn't either* I said looking down

*hey it's okay don't get upset you ain't there anymore don't worry about it* he said and hugged me

*I know I just hate being reminded of them when I know they can't get to me anymore* I said honestly

*no I get it,I will help you get through it* he said and he picked my bags up and walked up the stairs

*thank you* I said and I walked upstairs behind him he showed me the guest room it was small,it had a bed,a dresser,I walked over to the bed and sat down and Kiyan started moving around and I set him down on the bed

*well do you like it* I heard Eliza say standing in the doorway I looked up at her and smiled, I got my stuff out of kiyans bag first And I put it in the drawers and I put my stuff up

*It's not much but it's better than that shit hole....* Nate said and he stopped himself *sorry* he said

*it's okay I agree with you* I said

an hour later......

I was sitting on my bed watching TV while Kiyan was sitting on the floor playing with my phone and he was giggling and he stood up and started walking to me and he smiled at me

*mama* he said as he was reaching for me

*yes my baby* I said smiling and picked him up and he grabbed my shirt and started pulling it down I used to breastfeed him when he had no formula because my parents didn't give me money for it and he's started to get teeth and he can eat solid foods and I tried to break him from the boob but it's hard to do especially when he wants to sleep,he wants it every night,I grabbed his diaper bag and grabbed his bottle

*ALEX* I yelled and he came running in there with a worried expression on his face

*I need you to make him something to drink please I need to change his diaper* I said and yes he wears pull-ups because he's not potty trained yet I tried but he doesn't want too

*okay I'll give him some apple juice* he said smiling

*okay* I said smiling at him and he walked out leaving me with Kiyan and he started crying again and I hoped that Alex would hurry up with Kiyan's apple juice so he can go to sleep and I can take a shower and I heard someone clear their throat and I looked at Alex and he was standing there with a smile on his face

*here you go* he said walked over to me and handing me his cup

*thank you* I said to Alex as I fed him and he started to get tired so I decided to lay him down on my bed because we didn't have a crib for him yet and I put pillows on either side of him and I grabbed his binky and he started to fall asleep as I rubbed his back and I kissed his head and he started snoring lightly

*Your welcome* he said as he turned and walked out

I checked on kiyan one more time and I walked to the bathroom that was built into my room,I stripped out of my clothes and I stepped into the shower and I got to thinking about my life now these people took me in when I had no one and who knows where me and my son would be I'm starting to think that my parents didn't want me to have my son but they knew that I would be devastated if I didn't have my son and I would be very pissed off if they told me to abort him because I would never abort a baby God gave me him for a reason and that was to escape my *parents*and get my life on track and in order to that I need to get a education so I decided to tell Eliza and Nate that I wanted to take online classes to help me out and get a job to help Eliza and Nate pay bills because I want to thank them for letting me and my son stay here and that's exactly what I'm going to do.

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