Poetry, Rap, Quotes

Rap

(Poetry will be the next page, and then quotes)

Emotional Firsts

He was the first, guy

In a really long time

to break my walls down

and see what he'd find

he was the first, guy

for the rest of my life

to tell me that he loved me

and hear out my cries

Now you broke my mind

wont tell me where you been

Told you that i loved you

but you broke me from within

Gave you all you wanted

But your hearts made of sin

Forced me to fall

now i've got cuts across my skin

(Chorus, i have a tune but i cant record yet.)

He was the first -guy that I'd trust with my heart

told him all my secrets but he tore me apart

He was the first- guy who mattered to me

Said you'd never leave and i thought we were free

you played me like a song

then said you started to fall

Told me that you loved me

Then broke down my last wall

Saw what was left of me

and all you did was stall

Now im sitting at a payphone

But i dont know who to call

He was the first -guy that i'd trust with my heart

Told him all my secrets but he tore me apart

He was the first- guy who mattered to me

Said you'd never leave and i thought we were free

You told me to jump

but you let me hit the ground

Told me To run

but now i'll never be found

Lied to my face

And now i've been drowned

you took it too far

Dont count on seein me around

Peace out to this life

it aint worth my next breath

Drained the life from my eyes

im one step closer to death

I cant go any further

Im bleeding from my wrist

Told me to fight

but now i cant even make a fist

You took my firsts

From my smiles to my tears

Took what was left

and turned into my fears

And maybe you'll forget me

in a couple of years

but

My heartbeats getting slower

Hope you read my goodbyes

This is the last you'll see of me Jay

Its time i close my eyes.

Please know that i forgive you

For all the little lies

No one could hear my shouts

No one could hear my cries

I guess you won the game

and my death is your prize

-Fortune C. (This is my rap name.)

See me New

You don't know my mind

Only see what i write

You dont know im weak

Cuz all i do is fight

You saw me from the inside

So i thought you were my knight

Just cuz i trusted your heart

Doesn't make what you did alright!

You saw my scars

You knew my word

Saw the lines

But now their blurred

See me talk

But now its slurred

And i knew my pleas for help

Would never be heard

I felt incomplete

Said i was gonna do it

Take a knife buy a gun

All i need to do is shoot it

Got my pills got my rope

Told my friends im gonna lose it!

I only had one chance

Now i went and blew it

-Fortune C. (Again its me)

ILLUSION

Hiding my fears

Cuz its not worth the fight

Think you can push me over

But no, im not alright

Fucking with my head

J, i thought we were tight

Thought you were my candle

But youre the darkness not the light

Liein' cause you're fake

Im crying my tears

Screaming out my thoughts

But nobody ever hears

Cuts across my wrist

Now i'm losing all my fears

Cuz you've ruined the minds and took the souls of all your peers

-Fortune C.