Hopeless Romantic

Picture To Burn

2/15/11

Sitting in her car outside of the house she shared with Nick, Miranda chewed her lip softly. A part of her dreading getting out of the car though she knew Nick was gone. Had under the advisement of Prue texted Nick to set up a time when he wouldn't be here.

Miranda knowing if he was here he'd be convincing her to stay and she was afraid she'd give in. Knew he could say the right words as easy as he could be an asshole.

Just like Miranda was convinced no one would want her as much as Nick did. No other man would surely be able to cope with the crazy schedule she lived with.

Taking a deep breath, Miranda finally worked up the courage to get out of the car. Heading inside and letting her breath out as she was greeted with a silent house. She didn't even feel Nick's imposing presence that he exuded even without being around her.

That was enough to let her know he really was gone. He hadn't stayed to try to convince her to not go. Which maybe he wanted her gone.

Nick could have known like she did this relationship was running it's course even if she didn't want to give up easy just because of fear.

Fear which Miranda knew was irrational but it was what it was in the end.

Making it to the bedroom where majority of her stuff was at Miranda paused in the doorway as she made a face when her eyes landed on the bed. A small sigh escaping her lips because even though Nick wasn't here it seemed he had left her a gift.

A small stuffed teddy bear as well as a note laying beside it.

Slowly she willed herself to move to the bed where she picked up the teddy bear. Smiling in spite of herself because it was sweet even if she knew this wouldn't change things. It was just a gift to win her over for now and she couldn't fall into the trap just to have him burn her again.

No what she needed to do was get her stuff and leave. Go to Prue's house and get drunk. Burning all the damn pictures she had of Nick.

That would make Miranda feel better than taking Nick back because he gave her a teddy bear and wrote her what she assumed was a sweet note. She refused to even read it.

Knowing if she read it that it would probably make her stay which was the last thing she wanted or needed. She needed to keep some of her self-respect and dignity.

So what she did was lay the teddy bear back down and walk to the closet to get her suitcases so that she could pack her stuff. Close the chapter that was Nick in her book of life and start a new one that he wasn't in.

A chapter he'd never be back in if she could help it because despite what she wanted to do she knew she was better than that. She could indeed learn from her mother's mistakes.

That and maybe in the end she didn't want to disappoint her sister or Prue who had told her when she called her last night that she'd be angry if Miranda took Nick back. Which was why Prue had suggested she do all this when Nick was gone.

So that her best friend wouldn't be tempted and Miranda was really lucky to have Prue. Even if things were still off between them because of the Taylor thing last month.

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Miranda sighed as she looked at all her suitcases on the floor. All of them now full of her things and she felt dread at the thought of the trips she'd have to make back into the house because there was no way she could get everything out in one go.

But before she could even leave the bedroom to begin lugging he suitcases out to her car her cell phone rang and she reached into the pocket of her jeans where she kept the phone. Pulling it out to see Nick's name on the screen and she knew she shouldn't answer it but she did.