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We finish the song. Sav is really getting the feel of the songs.
Me: Nice job Savvy.
I look back to the guy who is running the recording booth.
Me: Are we cool for today?
Guy: Yeah. Call me in the next few days when you have that next song.
Me: For sure, man.
I lead everyone out of the studio. We are driving in Bran and Ned's car. We go back to the apartment building. I look at my phone. The show is in a few hours yet. We all go up to my place. Ryan is sleeping on the couch and Andy is watching TV. I drop my keys on the table and walk to my room. I sit on my bed. I look out to the skyline. The sun is starting to set. The show starts at 8. It is 5. I sit back onto my back board and curl up into a ball. My phone rings. I look it at. Craig. I pick it up.
Me: Hey.
Craig: So you and Ronnie cool?
Me: Yeah. We are.
I smile.
Craig: That's good. Mom and Dad are coming up tomorrow. Also I get Leila Rose for a few weeks.
I smile again. Leila Rose is his kid. My niece.
Me: I am going to have to take that kid shopping! Ask her mom if I can dye her hair! Ohmigod! I miss that chick!
Craig: Calm it! I will call Gabby and ask her.
Me: I wish you two never broke up, I liked her.
Craig: You sound like mom.
Me: Jerk! Call me when they get here.
I hear the front door open. I hear 'Hi's and 'Hey's then my door opens. Ronnie comes in. He looks like shit.
Me: Hey.
Ronnie: Hey.
He lays on my bed.
Me: Are you okay?
Ronnie: Never better
He laughs. I look at his eyes. His pupils where small.
Me: Where have you been?
Ronnie: I told you with a friend.
Me: Well you look like shit.
Ronnie: So do you!
He was getting really mad.
Me: Calm down, Ronnie.
Ronnie: Shut up! Don't tell me what to do!
He stands up. I see a few needle marks on his arms.
Me: Why do you have needle marks on your arms?
Ronnie: Don't look at me, bitch.
I stand up.
Me: Your fucked up.
Ronnie: Your a fuck tard.
He starts laughing.
Me: Shut up.
He rolls his eyes.
Ronnie: I'm thirsty. I'll be at the bar.
He storms out. I get tears in my eyes. He is on drugs again...
I started crying. Ryan came in my room. I was crying into my hands.
Ryan: What is going on?
I shook my head, and cry harder. If he knows he is back on drugs then Ronnie will get kicked out of the band.
Ryan: Tell me.
Me: I'm not being rude or anything, but leave. Now.
I look at him. I'm sure I have eyeliner all over my face. He shakes his head and leaves.
I cry till 8. Then Savvy came in to tell me that she was heading to the concert.
I was so upset about Ronnie I screamed at her to get the fuck out of my room before I suffocate her with a pillow.
I think she gets that I can get moody. She doesn't look like she is taking it personally.
I hear everyone leave. I go out and look around. No one is here. I go into my bathroom. I go into my makeup bag.
I find a old friend in their. A razor. I was bullied when I was younger. I cut all the time back then. I still have scars,
but no one talks about them. I take it out. I don't know why I carry it. Just for my mental state. I press the blade to my skin.
The door is locked, so even if someone comes home they won't find me growing week again. Blood starts to flow out.
I cut a few more times. I sit on the floor and lean against the bathtub. I cry. How could Ronnie do this to me? To himself?
He is risking it all for this drug, again. Blood drips on the floor. I stand up. I fill the sink with water and stick my hands in.
I watch it turn pink. I go into the drawer under the sink and get band-aids. I put them on my wrist. I grab random bracelets and put them on.
I go into the bedroom. I strip down and change into some yoga shorts and a tank. I crawl into bed and fall asleep.
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The Mistakes I Made °Ronnie Radke Love Story°
FanfictionOriginally uploaded on my quotev account. When Craig Mabbit is your brother, you have to hate his enemies too. Thats how Jaccolin thinks anyways. Which is why she originally hates her old friend Ronnie Radke. That is until she sees him again, as a...