Don't Go Before I Do

Paul

I couldn't believe I was in prison. I didn't start fights or anything but, I was beat on for being German and Russian. I had a feeling me and Richard's marriage was over.
What did I do that caused this. I cried alot. Weeks turned into mouths. I got a beating and I remember little about this attack. I ended in the hospital.

When I woke up I saw Till and another talking. "Till, what happened?"

"You was hit with a hard object and Richard got you freed. He went back to Germany."

I was released and Till had been glad to go home. I am sad because I know I have to find another place to live. I was given my stuff back and Till had given my phone back.

I walked in my house and sat down at my desk. I knew that I should start packing. I found a note.
Heiko,
I am so sorry for what I had done. I never should have done what I did to you. I know I hurt you really bad. I just want you to know I can't stop seeing that day you got hurt and I can't stop having nightmares about it. I do care.
Richard.

I didn't know what to think. First thing was when did Reesh start calling me Heiko. Am I missing something. I went for a walk. I took my camera and the note with me.

I walked to the place I almost got blown up. I realized it was a bad thing to happen. Reesh this is the day we lost each other. I started to cry. I remember standing in front of a window. Then I looked at my phone and found pictures from that day. I realized I was really injured. I see why Reesh had nightmares. I can't stop crying and I sat on the ground. I snapped selfie of me crying.

I sat with my head in my hands and I look like a ball. I then felt someone rap their arms around me. "Paul, I saw you leave. It is ok."

"Schneider, I just want Richard back and things back to normal."

"I know."

"I was standing here the day we lost each other."

"I know Paul."

I ended up crying myself asleep on Schneider. I was a mess. I hated the way my life was.