Gym love

Scared

Okay, so I'm in the changing rooms, as always now I've got glasses, my heart is thumping like mad! I'm super scared to go out and show my face, I just don't know what do do, I think I'll just pretend I'm a squirrel, curl up in a ball and hibernate in the changing rooms all alone like a loser 😢

Every minute going by I'm just thinking about him, I wonder if he ever thinks about me? Most defiantly proberly not.

I wish that I had the guts to go out, show my face, and just be who I am, but I really can't. You might think I'm one messed up girl but when i look at him my insides shatter, My stomach fills with a million butterflies and my head gets dizzy.

But for him it's a whole different story. He takes one look at me and tries to find somewhere to hide, and that's without my glasses.

I wish he would just say "hi"!!!

Later

Okay, so it was time to go into the gym #nervous! I saw him being awesome as always, and looking PERFECT. My palms were starting to get bare sweaty.

Sometimes I catch him staring at me too, but don't know what the hell his thinking. His proberly looking at me for all the wrong reasons.

OMG sooooo pissed off I was on the bars hanging, trying to go backwards, and all of his friends were shouting "Go T.J, whohoooo" they were waiting to see if I would look, even their coach was looking FFS but I just ignored them and carried on being a monkey.