Cause With No Goal

Diana

When we arrived at the studio, I got butterflies in my stomach. What if I mess up? My voice cracks or I forget the lyrics? "You'll do great. I promise." My face must have told him everything. We walked in and I was in awe. The equipment and everything was so overwhelming, so, beautiful.

Namjoon set up the equipment so it was just right for the song, and he took off. He started singing and I couldn't help but stare. His voice was beautiful. He was beautiful. It all felt... right. Soon my part came up and I started singing. I started nodding my head to the music and Namjoon did the same. I closed my eyes to really feel the beat of the music. The music, I felt, was in my veins. I felt like I have known this song for forever.

I opened on of my eyes just enough so that I could see, but he wouldn't know I was looking. I saw Namjoon, staring at me like I stared at him. I smiled. The song ended, and the butterflies were gone. I felt confident about this song. Suddenly, I felt something grab my waist and lift me up into the air. I yelped and noticed it was Namjoon. I laughed as he spun me round and set me down. We both were laughing and suddenly, we stopped. We were just staring into each other's eyes. Oh man why me? I felt my legs melting beneath me.

This seemed all too perfect. He was there, tall and beautiful, and we were just staring at each other. He still had his hands around my waist and my hands were still on his shoulders. I could help it any longer. I pulled myself close to him and I kissed him. I felt him adjusting his arms so that he was practically hugging me, and I put my arms up and around his neck. This all seemed like something from one of those teenage romance movies. He loosened his arms around me, but didn't stop hugging me. We were there standing, our noses touching, just smiling.

"You... you were great." I say, the smile not even leaving my face for a second. "Not as great as you." He replied, smiling down at me. I couldn't help but laugh. "What's so funny?" He asked, his smile subsiding. "Nothing, It's just that all of this... It's all... just too perfect." I said, still staring into his eyes. He smiled. "No this is not perfect. You're perfect." When he said that, I felt my legs melt beneath me once again. "I think that we should be going now. I bet that Alex and the boys are assuming things are going on." He raised an eyebrow. "Things?" I laughed. "Yes, things. And no those "things" are not gunna happen." He made a sad face. I laughed and pushed his away. We packed up our stuff and left.

In the car, I couldn't stop thinking about Namjoon. Does this all mean that we are together now? Like, together as a couple? "Yes." Namjoon said. "W-what?" He looked at me quickly. "You knew what I was thinking?" I asked in astonishment. "Well, not exactly, but I can have a pretty good clue." I raise an eyebrow. "Oh? Then what was I thinking?" "You are thinking that does all of this mean that we are a couple? A thing?" I sat up more in my seat. I kept silent. "See? I knew it." I put my head down. Wait. He said yes didn't he. I looked at him. "S-so that's a yes?" He laughed and reached over to my lap. He put his hand over mine. "Yes." I couldn't help but smile. I felt like I could throw up those little... rainbow...fruit-flavored... candies! "We should keep it a secret. Like, from Alex and the boys. I don't know, but I still feel like Alex is still into you Namjoon." He nodded. "I'm glad we agree." I said. The rest of the way home was silent.

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We walked into the house and Alex comes storming up to me. "Where have you been? Its 10:00 and you are just getting home?!" I folded my arms. "Hey not to sound messed up or anything, but I'm 18. And you're not my mom. So... I think I got my point across." She backed up. "Yeah sorry. Just, don't get me worried like that again. You to Namjoon." I look behind me and see him standing right up close to me. "So, movie anyone?" Alex asked. "I'm down." Namjoon said. "I'm actually tired. Imma read for a while and then I'm going to go to bed." Alex nodded and she and Namjoon walked into the living room to watch the movie. I walked into my room and I started to read. I was on my bed and I had been reading for about an hour and I heard a knock on the door.

"Come in." I called. I watched as Namjoon slid in the room. I smiled. "Hey Namjoon. Did you guys finish the movie?" Namjoon shook his head. "Nah Alex fell asleep on my shoulder, so I just left and came to check if you were asleep." I sat up and patted the bed next to me. He sat down, and I rested against him. "What are you reading?" he asked. "Harry Potter: The Half Blood Prince." He nodded his head. I put my bookmark in the book, closed it, and put it on my shelf. I laid on my bed down on my side and Namjoon did the same, facing me. He looked into my eyes and I wanted to look away, but also didn't want to ruin this moment. He ran his hand against my check, so warm and comforting. He started to kiss me.

I was hesitant at first, but then I allowed it. I heard my door being knocked on and Namjoon quickly got up. "U-uh Hold on a sec!" I called out. I pushed Namjoon into my closet and closed it. I ran over to my door and opened it. "Oh! Hey Alex. What's up?" She ran into my room and sat on my bed. Confused, I closed the door and sat next to her. "Do you know where Namjoon is?" She asked. I glanced towards my closet. "No... Why?" She took a deep breath. "I know I should have told you this a long time ago, but I was afraid. But now that I see it, I really think that I should tell you know before what I was afraid of happens."

I nodded my head. "Ok so, what is it?" Alex bit her lip and sighed. "I... I have feelings for him. Namjoon I mean. I have for a while now and, I just don't know what to do. I saw you getting so close to Namjoon and he was getting so close to you, I was afraid that you two, might be... ya know... a thing?" I glanced to my closet where I'm sure Namjoon was probably ready to just fall out. "N-no silly. We are just friends." She breathed out a sigh of relief. "Ok. Thanks. And, you're not attracted to him in any way, are you? Just wanna make sure I'm in the clear." I smiled. "Nope! I don't like him. Not one bit." She smiled. "Thanks Diana." She said as she gave me a hug. "I'm glad that I have a friend like you to talk to about these things. "Anytime."

Once Alex walked out of the room, Namjoon slipped out of the closet. "You looked too comfortable with saying you don't like me." I nodded. "That's cus I don't." Namjoon looked surprised. "B-but with all you said. The studio..." I ran up to him and I hugged him. "I don't like you. I love you. Someone had to be the first person to say it, so I guess I will make the first move." He laughed. We just stood there forever, just staring into one another's eyes. "So, what are you going to do about Alex?" I asked, trying to strike up a conversation. He sighed. "I really don't know." He suddenly brightened up. "I know! We can leave little clues to show her that we are dating. And, if successful, she will ask us if we are dating. And that's when we will tell her!" I was really surprised he came up with that. That is actually a really good plan. It'll be easy to break it to her. I nodded my head yes and he gave me a kiss goodnight.