Decisions ~ WHY DON'T WE

prologue

We're in the same family, but sometimes it seems like we came from totally different planets. We were connected by an eternal, unbreakable bond. Together we've shared laughs, secrets and sometimes tears... a lifetime of experiences that made us who we were. Fate made us brother and sister but we've chosen to be the best of friends. But when I needed you the most, you left. Starting your career. Things are different now, we're drifting apart, and I don't know how to fix it. You're starting to become closer to other people, and I'm just sitting here watching the world go by without me. I don't know what to do, I have no one anymore, I hope this is just a phase, and we'll become friends like we were before. I miss your presence in my life. I miss you always being there for me. Behind my smile is a breaking heart, behind my laugh I'm falling apart. It's insane how much I experienced with you, how close we were. But now you barely have time for me anymore. Hell yeah I want you to follow your dreams, but I just wished they included me. I never thought you'd move so far away. You're living your dream and I'm happy for you. It's just I can barely move on without you. Before you left we had a small fight, you showed the darkness behind your light. Broken is how you left me but you didn't even see... Since you've been gone I feel like every part of me is broken. You were a part of my heart and my soul. Our dad told me after you left "when two hearts are meant for each other, no distance is too far, no time is too long and no other heart can break what you guys had apart". That line has been stuck in my head ever since, you called me your princess and I thought you really were my prince. You stood up for me when something was wrong, that was what made our friendship so damn strong. After he left everything went down hill for me. Our dad's a soldier and had to leave to go to Afghanistan again, mom was alone again. Normally My older brother Jordan would help my mom but he moved out too. Mom could not handle me, i became aggressive and I would not come out of my room. She send me to her brother, my uncle Joe. But that did not help me, it made everything worse...
because what happened there has had the biggest impact on my life. I was not me anymore, I became a whole different person, but not in a positive way...
This story is about me, Bella Rose Besson...