My poem's

Death

Is it bad i welcome death every chance i get?
Is it bad i just want it to take me in the middle of everyone and make them rethink the way they treated me while i was alive?
Is it bad i just want to die now?
I welcome death but.
It keeps passing me by.
Ive over dosed every time i take my pills
Ive tried drowning myself in the tub
Ive tried banging my head on the wall over..
and over
and over.
Yet.
Im still here?
Why???
Why does death pass me by?!
Someone please!
End me!
End the pain
End it all
End the anger
the yelling
the screams of millions
The scratching
The begging
The crying
The unseen abuse
The scars
The cuts
End it all...
I don't remember what happiness was..
I can't feel love..
The arguing
The slapping
The yelling
....
Death please
Take my life
Do it in front of all the people who mistreated me.
In front of my bullies.
Let everyone see what ive wanted for so long
End the depression
The voices
Let me see all those who died before me
Let me die with them
Let me scream in pain as i take my final breath...
Death i welcome you
Every time you come closer you back away and let me live
The thing is.
I want to join you in the dark blissful abiss of your arms
I want to say good bye to all who truely cared or tried to care and gave me a chance
i...
Please i wish to end
My memories are slowly fading
i can't remember my childhood for maple's sake!
i see demons in my dreams and in reality
I see people for who they truely are and not how they act.
I'm tired of faking the smiles and laughter
heh..
i have fooled a lot of people with the faking.
Ive done it so much sounds real by now.
I can't even remember important things
My "family" says i willbe ok and nothing is wrong
They never bother to get me checked for a tumer or cancer
Guess im not that important anymore.
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...
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I wish i could be important to my family.
There are two people who truely care about me. One her name has already been mentioned. the other.. We shall call her Sve.
These two are pretty much all i have left to live for in life.
But this is supposed to be a poem... i guess i got of topic.

Oops.

Well i hope you get the point

((hey guys sorry for going off topic in here! things have just been very bad and such..School really isnt helping.. i should probably tell ya how many words in this should i? it is 500 words long. I hope you all enjoyed most of this "poem" it took me all day to type. Um So I'll see all you in my next peom. A riva d'archi bella's and bello's!))