"why do you keep looking at me" "your eyes are a masterpiece i cant stop looking at"
Amanda's POV
The wind wiped through my hair as the impala drove down the road. the radio blasting ACDC like always. Either that Metallica, led zeppelin, etc. i had just woken from sleep that was much needed after the last hunt. cutting off heads turns out to be a really exhausting thing to do. Sammy has been in college for about a year now of course leaving me with the guy the i believe still hates me, and i hate him. he thinks he is better than everyone just because he saves lives. News flash dean Winchester so do i and your dad.
"how come growing up, dean, you always picked on me."
"cause you're a freak."
"of course i'm a freak dumb ass, so are you. We hunt monsters. only crazy people do that. " i pointed at dean and then me "we are crazy."
"yea, you drive me crazy." dean said giving me a bitch face
"you know what. i was trying to have a conversation with you. trying to understand why you treat me the way you do."
"well, Amanda, have you ever thought maybe it was because you thought you could just waltz your sad little ass into my family."
"yea well id rather have john and sam as family than none at all"
"oh so i'm not family"
"no dean, i do not consider you family. i consider you a bitch."
dean pulled over the car "get out."
"uhh.. no" i said shaking my head
he leaned over and opened the door on my side. "get out Amanda."
"why, did i upset you cause i don't consider you family, you don't like me anyways, just as i don't like you so why the hell does it matter dean. i'm here to save people and hunt monsters. if i could i would have left a while ago but i can't."
"why?"
"because i'm scared to be on my own." dean looked away there was a long silence before he spoke up again
"close the door."
i did as he said and he pulled off the side of the road. we road the rest of the way to the motel in silence. no radio. nothing. it was sorta awkward to be honest. i never like riding in a car without the radio. i find the radio soothing, helps me with stress after a hunt. we pulled into the parking lot of the motel. another shitty motel. i walked up to the front desk behind dean.
"hi, how may i help you." a girl behind the counter asked her name tag read 'Alexandria'
"A room please" dean asked
"one queen coming right up." she said turning away "Whoa whoa whoa..uh no um two queens." i said pushing dean out of the way before he could say anything
"yea, we are just two friends on a road trip." dean said
"my apologies." Alexandria stated handing us our key to the room and we walked out
"friends? really dean?"
"What?" he asked unlocking the door and walking into the motel i walked in behind him closing the door.
"oh honey, we are far from friends. we just hunt together. that's all. Sam is my friend. you. well you're you." i sat my bag down on the bed.
"you are such a bitch, Amanda."
"I'm the bitch? I'm the bitch!? you are the one who started this shit between us in the first place! so you're the bitch, dean."
i didn't notice but as we were yelling at each other we seemed to get closer to one another. his eyes were dark with anger staring straight into my eyes. i felt his breath on my face as we were just staring at each other. we stayed like this for what felt like forever until dean spoke up.
"i'm going to get a drink." he stepped away grabbing his coat and keys.
i stayed in my spot not moving my eyes away from him as he walked out the door. i was laying on the motel bed staring at the ceiling when i decided to do something i will never forgive myself for. i was gonna apologize to dean. i hot wired a car and made my way to the nearest bars to look for dean. i saw his car at the first one i came to. i parked the car on the side of the road before walking the rest of the way to the bar. i walked inside and found dean sitting at the bar on a stool. i walked over and sat next to him and ordered a beer.
"what do you want, Amanda?"
"I came to apologize. i can easily leave as i came."
"you're apologizing?"
"yes, please don't make me regret this." he looked at me and nodded as if telling me to proceed. i took a drink of me beer
"i'm sorry that i waltzed into your family without asking. i'm sorry that i didn't want to be alone so i chose your family to stay with. i'm sorry i argue all the time and call you names. I just, I miss me. The old me, the happy me, the bright me, the smiling laughing me. The gone me."
"I'm sorry as well." dean started "sorry you felt like you needed to apologize to me when i need to apologize to you. so i'm sorry for being such a dick all the time."
i moved my cup to do a cheers and held it there till dean did the same. we hit the glasses together then i chugged my beer.
"well i gotta get some sleep." dean spoke up with getting his jacket on. "you coming?"
"uh.. yea." i stood up putting on my jacket following deans actions and walking out to the impala to. dean was stumbling on the way out.
"i think i'm gonna drive." i said and grabbed his key unlocking the car and getting in
"how did you get here anyways?"
"i uh.. i stole a car." I started the car and he looked at me smiling
"that's my girl." he gave me a high five
"don't ever call me your girl again." i said chuckling
"Alright,..Alright." i drove out of the parking lot.
it's a good thing i didn't drink that much and was able to drive. we got to the motel made are way to the room. dean almost falling a couple times. we finally made it in and i locked the door when i turned around i was met with deans face almost touching mine.
"whoa..persona...." i was cut off by dean kissing me. i pushed him away with anger and slapped him.
"what the hell dean!?" his looked down frowning
"I'm sorry." he said and went over to his bed sitting down to take off his shoes and jacket.
"Sorry! What the hell were you thinking kissing me like that. we are never gonna happen. i don't like you like that, hell i barely like you at all."
"look i'm drunk i don't know what i was thinking."
"just go to bed dean." i said shaking my head walking over to my bed taking off my shoes and throwing my jacket across the room landing on the table in front of the window next to the door.
"again i'm so.."
i cut him off "i swear if you say sorry one more time i'm sleeping in the impala." i said pointing at him
"alrighty then."
i turned of the light to the motel room only leaving the light from the lamp on the bedside table light the room. i laid down looking up at the ceiling i pulled the covers over me. i cant have feelings for dean. He is such an asshole. we would never be able to have a healthy relationship. we already fight all the time. oh and i hate him with a passion . i have tried many times to get along with him and not fight but he always finds something to fight about; But when he kissed me i had a flash back to when we were 18...
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Almost Lover // Dean Winchester
Fanfiction" I almost had you didn't I?" Yea, almost."
