Letters

Sparky

So many things to say.

But...I don't want to say them.

I'm scared that I'll hurt you...again.

I know you say you don't get hurt or your used to it but I don't believe you.

Things keep getting worse and worse.

I'm falling apart and I see how happy you are without me and that gets me thinking.

'Should I do the world and favour and die? Or should I stay and be hurt non stop?'

Its a hard thing to decide, especially when you have so many people you wanna meet and get to know them in person.

But when you have parents that you hate and wanna get away from, it's kinda hard to do that.

Whenever they day something I just wanna cry my eyes out and run and never come back.

But I told you I'd stay for as long as I could, but promises are made to be broken right?

I feel like everything I've ever been told is bullshit and I shouldn't trust anyone.

You helped me trust people when I didn't want to, you made me love when I felt I couldn't.

No matter what you'll always be my 'big sis' I'll never forget you and I'll never stop asking myself if your okay or if your happy I'm gone.

There is one question that comes to mind a lot, would you still be the same if I killed myself?

Would you even notice? it's not like we talk non stop like we used to, we don't really talk and its kinda killing me as much as I don't want to believe it, it is killing me and I hate not talking to you, but its what's best.

You may not think so, but it is and you'll see sooner or later...

Hope your doing great sparks, you can be the best single pringle in the world, who meeds guys? Most of them are dicks anyway.