I've been sitting here, For so long... Not knowing what I should do. My thoughts coming at me from many directions, my tears running down my face, my heart feeling like it's broken, an empty hole in my chest, Nothing but my memories tearing me apart.
I sit alone, walk alone, everything....alone. when I look around, I feel as if everyone is staring, judging, and laughing at me. My past is inundating my mind like when a tsunami floods an Island. No one in this world cares enough for me. Every feeling inside me only shows in emotions of anger, gult, and sadness. Nothing is left in this world besides a hole for me to die in.
Some people tell me to die, some tell me to live, others feel no care in the world. Some days I feel as if I want to die and other days I want to live because I know there are some people who care. I tend to think to myself, what am I, why do I look the way I do, why do I feel like people hate me, why does one side of me want to die and the other doesn't, In what way can I change my life to something or someone new? All I want is to be loved, cared for, thought of, and so much more. I look at a few friends of mine and I think, I wish I was like them or I wish I looked like that person. I even wish that I could be hypnotized and everything that is said to me to not eat or drink, I don't do. I would love to lose weight but I just keep gaining it back. I want to be more sporty but all I do is hide In a box or such as the shadows.
I want to be noticed but then, I don't. I just don't know what to do.
Author's note: sorry this chapter is short but I promise the next one will be a lil longer. Don't forget to leave a like and comment down below 👇
Love u guys and the next chapter will be uploaded the 23rd of this month.
