feelings on a piece of paper: a nobody's amateur poetry

Cynic Turned Positive

cynic turned positive

how can this be?

i guess everything started slipping away from me.

i was a cynic

whenever i saw negativity, i'd automatically mimic

discredited all idealism

believed wholly in what i thought was 'realism'

now it's all turned to shit

so i guess that thread, it was it

now i'm a cynic turned positive

cynic turned positive.

i swear i curse i live in melancholia

i still have scopophobia

i'm used to paranoia

but now i say "if you feel that way too, don't let it destroy ya''

because i'm a cynic turned positive, yeah

a cynic turned positive.

i'm still drowning in depression

it's gloomy when you look at my self expression

i've got unhealthy obsessions

but all the time now, instead of bringin' you down

i believe in you and others to be able to get out of those closed-door sessions

and even if you don't or can't

i won't treat you like an ant

crush you under my shoe, and say i'm stronger than you

that's not even what the old me would do

and now after all these years i've pushed through

gotten out of that cynic's skin

and although i'm still feeling blue

now i can think from a different point of view

and i'm not perfect

but i think that maybe, just maybe, i've earned it

this optimists outlook

over a myriad of problems in life's nowhere near closed book

and now

i think it'll be alright