lost (delena fanfiction after 5x22)

Escape

Sorry for taking so long to update.

Some was written on a train so sorry if it's bumpy. thanks for all your comments .

Elena's POV.

I reached through my mind pushing past all of my emotions. The anger, the pain, the guilt, the grief and every god damn emotion possible. I had had enough and it was time to change. I couldn't live without him so instead of kill myself I'm just going to block the pain until I get him back. I took one more look at Jeremy let go of him from his warm embrace and just like that I switched it off.

"Elena?" Jeremy asked in his annoying voice that was always nagging. "are you ok?" He asked.

"No I'm not ok are you some kind of idiot! but I will survive now I don't have to deal with the torture of heartbreak."i snapped at him. his face froze and his jaw dropped. "elena what..what did you do?" he stuttered.

"I turned off the switch so that I could survive. problem?" I smirked the last bit. "now if you will excuse me I have to go and shower." I just walked off leaving him gawping.

Whilst trying to leave the cemetery stefan approached me from the side. "elena-" before he could finish I pushed him away with my hand . not realising my own strength I made him fly 5 meters back and land against a tree. "not in the mood stef stef" I said while opening the gate and leaving the cemetery with stefan on my tail. He was not gonna let me leave so I was going to have to be clever. I ran back to the boarding house as quick as I could. I ran up to Damon's room and locked the door. I pushed the Chester draws and a bookshelf against the door so no one could get in. I knew what I had to do I was going to escape.

"Elena, open the door we need to talk about this we can get through this together. I will help you.!" stefan yelled through the door. "stefan the only thing that's going to help me or at least restore my emotions is if I get damon back so if you can find a way to do that then you'll have me back too. but until then I am going to shower and wash away those idiot emotions, that are draining me." I heard him walk away. he knew there was no way he could beat me in this. I walked to the shower and switched it on causing warm water to splash out from the head. I wasn't actually going to shower it is a distraction for the idiots downstairs. I could hear that they were all there now stefan, caroline, bonnie, tyler, Alaric and just a room full of emotional doofuses.

I knew that they could only hear the running water so it knew this would be a good time to escape this hell hole of memories! I diddnt need to take anything with me just myself. I tucked my phone in my pocket feeling something else in the dress pocket two. my fingers graded the picture of damon and I form earlier. this time I was looking at it in a differnt way. "i'm gonna get you back even if it kills me." I whispered to the picture. even though my emotions were gone I still wanted him back. I don't want to be like this but it's the only was to survive that kind of pain. I have lost nearly everyone that I love. But the difference if whenever I had a problem before damon was my solution, my shoulder to cry on but now he's dead and I have no one. everyone else tells me it will be okay you'll get through this but that's not what I need I need time on my own. which is what I was going to get.

Still wearing me dress from the funeral, and grabbing a bottle I Damon's bourbon from his secret stash under the bed. I slowly opened the window trying to be silent do the vampires downstairs diddnt hear and Try and stop me. when it was open just enough for me to get out I quickly hooped out the window and ran as fast as I could to nowhere in paticular.

Stefan's POV .

Everyone was sat in silence no one can talk, what do you say? everybody lost a friend, best friend, someone they love and for me it was all of the above and I lost my only brother. We were all still in shock from the events of the last few days. elena obviously the most, she switched it off! but I knew I had to stay strong or we are never going to get him back. Jeremy was staring into the fire, Bonnie knew this would happen all along. if inly Bonnie hadn't put elena and I through first then we'd still be with them in god knows where. I don know if that's better, living without my brother or dying with him? all I know is elena wanted to die with him, that's why she got in that car with him and blew herself up with the person she loved. damon was happy his life was great he didn't deserve to be gone.