Fall For Me | Namjoon [√]

21: kissing isn't the first step

KIM NAMJOON'S POV

I closed my eyes and kissed her.

It was so sudden. I had no control over my emotions or my actions, but whatever was happening, I'd never felt like this before.

As I put my lips on hers, my hand on her cheek and her skin burning against my palm. She kissed me back, her other hand reaching for the side of my head and she grabbed the back of my neck. I just kind of lost it there.

I pulled her closer, using both of my hands I held her small waist tightly against mine and almost lifted her up the ground. I felt like I could actually devour her and I've never wanted something or, someone so bad.

And the kiss I gave her could say it. I'd never told her how much of an effect she had on me, but if she could decipher this touch she'd definitely understand how much I wanted her, wanted this to happen.

Even if it was wrong.

I let go off her only when my lungs desperately needed air, even though it was so hard to pull myself away from her. I was still holding her in my arms and we both were catching our breaths. Her whole face was red, eyes glittery, and she couldn't look at me straight. And I couldn't keep my eyes off of her.

After that, things happened. They weren't really noticeable to me because I was still hung up on the kiss, and she was too probably.

I gave her the spare helmet back and drove her all the way back to home. She left without saying goodbye, almost ran out of my sight when I dropped her off to her house's door. The whole way too we were both silent.

This was wrong, so wrong in every possible way.

But why did it feel so right?

I was her teacher. I knew we shouldn't had; I shouldn't had done this.

Even though, those thoughts kept crossing my mind, I couldn't feel any amount of regret for what I'd done earlier. Every thought of mine kept contradicting each other, leaving me in a state of carelessness. And I didn't know how to feel about this anymore.

***

"Now that you've seen your marks for the tutorial, you know that only a few of you have actually tried hard. Majority had me disappointed." I let out a small sigh putting my hands on the table, leaning forward. "So there will be another test in the next class, on the same syllabus. I want you to take it seriously this time."

A frustrated, angry groan came from the crowd before me. After the lecture, the students looked too defeated to run off excited like the other days.

Not too long ago, I was somewhere sitting in that crowd. Now I had this podium all to myself. I was on the pedestal and I had the power. I thought I wasn’t going to be strict because I hated teachers like that. But now I could understand where they were coming from.

"Best of luck to you all," I said as I eyed each and every student leaving through the front and back door.

Where was she?

Letting out yet another exhausted exhale of the carbon dioxide, I started fixing up my tie, loosening it up. Almost all the students were gone, and then finally I saw her, sneakily leaving through the back door!

"Soomi!" I quickly walked up to her putting the books down. I knew she had heard me since I saw her speed fasten.

Well, who's the one running away now? You can't hide from me.

"Park Soomi!" I called out her name loudly, catching up to her and taking a walk by her side. She did her best to out-speed me by walking faster but sadly, it was a waste of energy on her case.