"anna,
i guess that there's nothing i can do to pretend now. i can't do this anymore.
anna, i know that we were never related by blood, but you've been my sister since we were kids and we were raised like that. that's why when i think about you i feel like a shitty person because i know what my mother would think.
she'd think that i'm sick.
does this change what i feel for you?
no.
it never did.
every time i had to act like i didn't care it hurt, anna, it hurt so bad.
i get fucking high all the time and i even fight my own friends when they say something about you - maybe i am sick, after all.
please, be fine on your own.
i won't be there anymore because i can't deal with my own fucking mind.
you were everything, anna.
you were the dream,
and you were the nightmare in my head.
you were my sane and my drunken thoughts.
you were everything.
사랑해.
- 호석"
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it's been a month since you left, but i still read your letter everyday. it hurts to know that you never got to read the ones that i wrote for you.
i've been trying to live with the memories in this house that was once complete - now it's just me and it's never been harder.
still,
thank you, hoseok.
i understand why you did what you did,
and although i'm broken,
i'll always love you.
i'll love you with every broken piece that's left of my heart.
the end.
