Asher's POV
"You can't leave me all alone! Not again Asher!" she complains softly
And she was at it again.
"Why do you do this to me! I gave you all my love and this is how you repay me! I can't take it anymore. I just can't!" Alex sobs
My heart breaks a little inside. I can feel the sad liquid trying to escape out my eyes but for some reason it won't fall. I can't cry. I have to be strong for her. I sigh as I rise from the couch and approach my lover. Her beautiful brown eyes were puffy and red. They held fear and desperation. It always had when I get these calls. I hated that I caused her so much pain but this is something that has to be done. She'll realize this when the war is over.
"Alex - I.." I reached to caress her cheeks until she slapped me across my face.
Ouch.
"Don't you fu----g touch me you, you bastard!"
"Alex, please. Let's talk about thi-"
"NO Asher! We can't just 'talk' about this! I don't understand why you enlisted in the first place."
We just stood there. Looking all hopeless. Neither of us knew what to say next. I wanted her to say something though. I didn't care if they were words of disgust, hate,comfort or love. I just wanted the silence to end.
I sigh heavily
"Alex, I'm truly sorry that this happened but we'll just have to deal with this together. We wouldn't want our last days together to be-"
She starts sobbing even harder than before. She covers her ears and kneels down on the floor. Shaking her head in disbelief. This is the kinda thing I have to deal with. Lately her anxiety's been getting worse and I feel hopeless. She's never been this bad.
"Last?! Can you hear what your saying right now? How can you say th-"
I welcome her into a warm embrace.
"You know I don't mean it like that Alex.. I could never leave you all by yourself forever. I will come back to you. There's nothing to worry about."
She relaxes a bit in my arms. "Really, are you sure?" She asks. Showing me those big brown eyes of hers.
"I'm sure. All we'll be doing is training for war. Everything will be fine."
She sighs from relief "That's good to hear." She wipes her tears away "I feel much better now."
......
At the car
"Are you sure you'll be able to work at the diner tonight?" I ask terrified for my girlfriend's well being.
"Don't worry about me, babe. I'll be fine." she says
"...Alright. Don't stay out too late now." I joke
"I'll be back by 11:02" She says as she inserts the key. 02?
Alex had the nerve to give me a cute as* smirk. I give her a oh-no-you-wont-face but she drives off blowing me a kiss.
"BYE!" I yell like a retard. When her car is out of sight I walk along the house's entrance.
I sigh heavily before plopping on the steps. "I hope she'll be alright."
Alexis's POV
I'm so anxious right now. It feels like I can't breathe. Asher is leaving... AGAIN. It doesn't help that my anxiety attacks have been getting a little out of control for no reason. No that I have a reason to be going insane who knows how I will cope with the anxiety. I told my boyfriend that I'm working late at the diner tonight but I'm actually going to The Rover's Inn to get a drink or two.
When I get there, I park my car and proceed to walk in the bar. Everything looks the same from when I left it 8 months ago, which is the last time Asher got that 'special' call. I find a high chair to sit on and then ask Tom, the bartender to get me a shot. That ended up being 10 shots and I could barely stand when I am setting out to leave. Tom offered to drive me home but I told him that I'll just sleep in my car.
The slumber in my car was terrible. It was just hours of me sobbing. When I think I'm physically & mentally stable I start my engine and drive off.
I reach my house in about 30 minutes and parked it in me & Asher's driveway.
Oh god I really hope he doesn't see me like this. I think to myself. I gently and slowly closed the door, took off my shoes, and flopped on the couch. I sigh heavily.
This has to stop. You're only hurting your self more, Alexis. Drinking is not gonna help you.
When I start to doze off.. I feel someone shake me.
"Alexis. Imani. Jenner."
Oh god. I open my eyes to see my handsome boyfriend looking fairly worried and disappointed.
"Umm." I say lowly
"You've been out drinking again, haven't you?" He ask worry filling in his eyes. I don't answer. One tear rolls down my cheek. He took my silence as a yes.
"How could you, Alexis?!" He screams. I cringe a little.
Asher's POV
I grab the pillow and punched it with all my might. "How could you do this to me. I understand that you're hurting right now but how do you think I feel!? Do you really think it's easy for me?.." She stays quiet not moving. "DRINKING IS NOT GOING TO SOLVE ANYTHING! Not a damn thing!"
Before I can curse her out more she hugs me. That's when I realize my face is flooding with tears.
She's also sobbing "..I'm sorry, Asher..." She says mumbling in my ears "I'm so sorry."
I fall to my knees with her still holding onto me.
I hug her back and start crying, leaning on her shoulders. I squeeze her waist as if someone is trying to take her away from me. I don't want to let her go.
"I love you." I say barely. Those words are true. I am hopelessly & dangerously in love with Alexis Jenner. I feel so vulnerable ,but I'm okay with it because I know that Alex will never hurt me. I can depend on her to comfort me when I cry.
"And I love you." She says ,her voice shaking a bit.
