Strange Love | Byun Baekhyun

Chapter 1: Introduction

Hi, my name is Sarang and if you don't know what that translates to, it means "love" in Korean.
I was born on the 14th of February, also known as valentines day.

My parents thought that the name Sarang would suit me most as I was born on the day that celebrates love, hoping that I too would experience nothing but love in my life. Though it was sweet, it didn't exactly work out like they had hoped it would.

/I'm now 22 years old and ironically enough that's the same amount of time I've been single for./

I cannot stress how much I despise valentines day. The more I grew up, the more I've grown to hate it.  when i turned 16 years old, i finnaly mustered up all my courage and confessed to my crush, I ended up getting rejected in front of everyone and made fun of. Not only did I get rejected badly but I became the loser of the school. I earned a pretty bad reputation,maybe the worst in the school, so my friends left me fearing they'd get bullied as well, I dont really blame them anymore, they were probably scared. It was a lonely time for me, not having anyone by your side is scary. Who would have thought that having an innocent crush and being bold enough to confess could bring so much misery, if I did maybe I wouldnt have confessed, maybe I'd keep all my friends, maybe I'd be in a happy relationship...maybe things could have been diffrent. All in all my birthday became a living nightmare, becoming a reminder of that day, the only day I wish to forget. As if I wasnt feeling lonely enough,I see couples flirting and being their lovey-dovey self in the streets on my birthday, reminding me that I'm as single as I can be. It's more of a curse than a blessing I'd say, and so I  gave up on the idea of love or any sort of relationship, I'd rather stay on my bed in the corner of my room facing the cold hard screen of my laptop watching TV shows all day, while hiding in my oversized hoodie and experiencing love through the screen. It might sound sad and lonely, which it kind of is, but i quite enjoy it, makes me feel a little less lonely, especially when I have nothing else to do other than studying. You can call me a loner but even loners like to have company sometimes. I do have my family but they live so far away, by far away i mean three blocks away, I'm a lazy person, what can I say. i just cant be bothered to look presentable in front of my mother so that she wouldn't nag me about being messy and not caring about my looks, and then proceeding by taking the example of me being single because i'm not "presentable" enough , and then repeating the speech where she'd tell me to get married to a good husband, that would support me financially and mentally,  but let's be real here, I can barely date anyone let alone get married to someone. I also have a sister, shes three years younger than me and the only friend I have, and of course the greatest father of all time, I do visit them from time to time, or they'd occasionally drop by my appartment on weekends because I attend college.
I have everything I need in my life except for friends. After the infamous rejection, I decided to shut the doors to any social life, the thought of new people scares me. After a year my parents decided to transfer me to a new high school to have a fresh start, i couldnt bring myself to go through that again so I decided to be invisible and go unnoticed for my own good, and so I did. I became invisible to everyone even the teachers forgot about my existance at times. I honestly preferred it over betrayal and embarrassment.I didnt talk to anyone, other than my family. Sometimes I had to talk to the teachers but I'd try to keep it as short as possible. From there it became a habit of mine not to talk to anyone, I even forgot how to socialize or to hold up a conversation for more than three seconds. I ended up developing social anxiety, trust issues and i started becoming afraid of people. I can hardly remember the last time i talked or looked at a person in their eyes, face to face, other than my family members and the the cashier of the shop below my apartment, when i had to say "thank you".

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(A/N):Hi, hope you like the 1st chapter of "Strange Love". I created this story out of boredom so, here's this.
Update:
I Actually wrote this book almsot 2 years ago and now I've decided to rewrite it. When I looked back at it, i felt like it was a bit cringey not gonna lie. But since my writing isn't so terrible anymore I thought It wouldnt be such a bad idea to clean it up a bit. Thank you for reading.