A dyslexic journal

Julio 11 "Again, waiting for you"

I sit waiting for you,

I watch people pass with indifference.

It's not possible to know what mood you'll get on this day.

Everything goes through my mind,

Trying to count everything that had happened in the week.

For a whole week missing you,

I wish you knew how long I am being waiting for you.

Nothing is different, the scenario of our encounter is the same

You came and everything was the same,

Spent the hours talking about the same thing.

The subject changed several times and then you approached,

Did not know what to expect from you.

You gave me a kiss, we kiss,

A soft kiss on the lips.

I did not know what to say,

I did not know if I had to say something,

It is necessary to show you any kind of affection.

You expected some reaction!

I did not say anything,

I did not know how to react.

Because I didn't know how I felt,

It was something that had been waiting for a long time.

What made you have that reaction and kiss me?

You kissed me again,

This time I reacted and I returned the kiss,

But I missed my changes due a lack of interest in you?

I opened my eyes,

I saw your face moving away with a mocking smile.

Did you read my mind?

You knew I was confuse about us?

I did not know what to think,

It is one of the few times I remain silent, not knowing what to say.

I tried to ignore what had happened,

But I could not ignore you mocking smile.

Did I really want it to happen again?

I need to go,What did I do?

I move to the living room, trying to run away form your sight.

So you can clear your head a little and do not feel the need to kiss again.

What are you doing? Why are you letting me go?

You sit next to me, stretching your arm to hug you,

For a long time I did not feel the human warmth,

We do not move from that position for a long time.

We remained in that position without saying a word.

I just feel your body close to me,

I feel your breath,

I feel your weak heart's beat.

You know it's the worst of this situation,

This escenario always was only a dream,

I knew that if I wake up everything will be the same,

I didn't think this will be real,

That why this morning, I wake up and felt your presence, your touch and you were not here.

Because again, it was only a dream,

A vivid dream,

Because it is a beautiful life and a beautiful lie when I am with you,

Funny, How I am able to describe the smell of your skin?

How your hair feels between my finger?

Through the daydream, I will see you close to me,

I think you will be a part of me,

I don't expect more from this,

We will always see each other in my dreams.

We will be together in it my beautiful boogieman.