Thoughts From Someone Lonely 🌙

Why I'd Never Hurt You

Warning: If you're triggered by the mention of physical violence and abuse don't read the chapter. If your vocab is a shortcoming of yours or you find the previously mentioned to be bland, then yea. This'll be boring for you.

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Quite simple isn't it? I'm sure we've all heard the phrase time and time again as children.

"Treat others how you want to be treated."

However all those oh-so-tedious repremandments seen to vanish from our heads fully as adults.

Anyone who's been subject to abuse as in adolescence will relate to this next statement immesly.

"When I'm a grown up, I'll never beat my kids!"

Let that sink in for a moment. It isn't a poor people thing. It isn't a minority thing. It isn't a rare case of derangement.

These same children, children which have experienced torment first hand grow older and repeat the cycle. With age comes wisdom, yes? So how could this happen?

At fifteen years old, I obviously l feel I have valid and true explanations for my current beleifs. Beliefs that I trust myself to stand by through thick and thin. Then again, in the oppressors own words - maybe when I'm old I'll get smart enough to raise my kids right?

Let's start with what I'm sure of. I would never hurt you.

You could push me away, you could attack me emotionally, you could come after my family. You could do all within your power to reside me at my very worst.

Of any retaliation I'd pursue against you, physically beating you to the life of me wouldn't have crossed my mind once. Why, you ask? Because I'm not a fucking psychopath.

We've become extremely desensitized to child abuse and it makes me sick

When exactly discipline began to translate to a grown ass human physically and emotionally traumatizing their own offspring is of course far beyond me.

When exactly a woman consciously choosing to stay with a abusive man began to take priority over a child who has no other choice is a thought I don't have the spare chromosomes to delve into at the moment

Just know this; if someone is damaging you, is breaking you down, physically, mentally, emotionally, sexually, or otherwise, you aren't alone.

You aren't alone but you are without doubt a victim, and seeking help isn't always an option. I know this first hand.

You are strong. You are worthy. You are loved. And you are an inspiration. Please dont allow this to toll you.