Stupid thoughts on a sleepless night

There is no answer.

I want an answer over my thoughts but there is none im tired i need help and i just want to empty my head of thoughts i want all my ideas to spill out on my ipad im writing on i want to show people what i think i need hope from someone that im not sure exist i need a hug from someone who dont share the blood in our veins i want to make a larp and have ideas for it and i have like 5 of them in my head right now i make stuff and i try o make it better all the time but nothing happens i need help with sorting things out i want to move out and live by myself but im afraid of what could happen i want my own life and i wamt attention i want to meet the people i lobe but i can only meet one that i feel like i have hurt i dont wamt to hurt people but i cant do f about it my life is like a pair of ear buds which has been in your pocket for a year tangled to no release im tired i think i will sleep im sorry if someone reads this i may post more other times when i feel i have to empty myself a bit thanks for,standing me