Tip 1: Stop Procrastinating- All the cartoons in the world can't save me from myself
I don't think there was a moment in my life where I didn't recognize something a little off or unfair. Chechi's life was unfair yet I was oblivious to that till she died. I grew up jealous. Jealousy became me as a child and turned me into the person I am now. I still hold its characteristics and feel each pang it send me when something happens. I grew up longing for something more. Most of all I longed for acceptance. Being accepted in my cousins' group, acceptance in a group a friends that I can call my own forever, acceptance of the way I'm slacking in life and that I need to get my game together. Why can't I just do something as simple as that. Now that I'm older, I have realized that other people are suffering too, and even worse for that fact. I shouldn't be complaining and I swear I'm not doing it for the attention anymore. I need to stop messing up. It's too much of a problem and I hear it from my family day in and day out. I need to fix myself. I'm not good enough for the life I live or to be a child of God. I need to fix myself so I can be someone other people can look up to. This is no ones fault but my own. I need to own up so my mistakes and just do the right things. WHATS HOLDING ME BACK?! I feel like cussing. I don't want to cuss anymore, I was against cussing as much as I am against teenagers dating. It doesn't make anyone more superior. I won't be higher than anyone if I don't even gahhhh. Nothing is useless besides the time I waste.
