Without An Anchor [completed] By @sosvoid

I'll always remember you

Stiles POV

I hadn't realized it but Scott hadn't talked or even moved for that matter in a while. As I am slowly grabbing Malia up to stand up I ask in a soft voice "Scott, are you ok?" "Um yea, I am fine." "How are you feeling now, Malia? You need anything?" Scott quickly snaps back. "I just want to go outside for a bit I need some air." Malia says in a kind of a whisper.
"Let's go then." Scott says as he stands up. "I want to go to a park tho." "Ok." I say "sure." Scott adds as we share a confused look.

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Scott's POV

The whole car ride I am mentally absent all these thoughts and feelings rushing in and out there's a pain in my heart that stings and I am not sure why it's there. As the car comes to a stop I quickly open my door and run to the other side of the car and open the door to reveal a pale Malia, my heart sinks. I carefully start to help her out. She suddenly looses her balance but I am there to catch her.
Stiles is there right next to her unsure of how to help or what to do. "Let's just lay on the grass...I just need to rest for a minute." Malia says in a whisper. We lay her down and we too get acquainted with the soft fresh grass, Deaton stays standing however from some distance.

"Scott....can I have....a minute..alone with Stiles?"

Confusion spreads through me but I just nod and walk away to find Deaton.

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Stiles' POV

As Scott walks away Malia looks at me her eyes watery. "Malia does something hurt?" I quickly ask as I kneel down beside her. "We all know what's going to happen next." She says as she starts to sit up. "What are you talking about Malia??" "Deep down you know Stiles, your just ignoring it."

I know what she means but I won't say because I am scared of even the thought of it.

"No Malia you're not leaving we'll figure something out we always do." I say in a shaky voice as I try to contain my tears.

"Not this time Stiles." Malia calmly says

"No, Malia listen... " "No Stiles you listen." She interrupts "you taught me what it was like to care, you taught me emotions I didn't know I had."

"Malia you can't leave I still love you." I choke out.

"You were my anchor without you I'd be reckless, Stiles without you I wouldn't be who I am today.... I would of probably still be a wild coyote somewhere in the woods. if you wouldn't of insisted on saving me. I would still be lost."

What she says really sinks in making me feel a lot of emotions all at once. A sense of guilt slowly spreads as I think maybe if I would've of let her be, she wouldn't be dying here today.

"Stiles you played a huge part in my life. I just want to thank you." She says as tears start flowing out but she quickly wipes them away.

I can see the hurt on her face. I can tell she still loves me or at least feels something very strong towards me. I hate the thought that just days ago I broke her heart by not choosing her and choosing Lydia instead.

"Malia you have to fight this you have to survive. I'll be here I promise things will be like before... before I got taken by the ghost hunt." I say finally letting all the tears flow out.

"I am tired of fighting Stiles, I am tired of surviving in a way I am glad I am here today...like this.

I tightly grab her in my arms not ever wanting to let go.

"Thank you Stiles I'll always love you. You made me who I am." She says as more tears leave her eyes. It breaks my heart.

"Malia please stay I love you, you can't leave me...you're my love. I say as I pull away to look in her eyes. We stare into each other's eyes for a while.

Until she looks away.

"No, Stiles I am not your love... Lydia is she's always been... I was just a way to get her off your mind for a while but still then she lived inside your heart."

My heart hurts even more then it did before. Malia deserved better. She deserved someone who really loved her and only her.

"Stiles you were my first everything." and I thank you for all those memories." She finished and I can hear her soft sobbs.

Her gaze is focused away from me. I hug her one last time and to my surprise she hugs back. I start to stand up as she still looks away, I can tell she doesn't want to let me see how much she's crying. Without knowing what to say next all that leaves my lips is

"I'll always remember you."

Hey guys thanks for reading this book sadly it is coming to an end get ready for the last chapter that I will hopefully be updating very soon.
Much love to all the readers🤘🏼