When the Heartbreaker Falls In Love

7th

Ayumi's Pov

"it's been so long hasn't it dad?" I placed a bouquet of white roses infront of a white porcelain vase with the initials of "F.P". meaning, Francis Park, my father.

It's been a while since I visited the crematorium. I feel kinda guilty that I don't visit dad as much as I did before.

"I'm sorry if I only visited you today. College was a pain for me" I nervously laugh and rubbed the nape of my neck. "But at least, I have someone to celebrate my birthday with" I smiled and looked at the photos that I have put on the case together with the vase. It was a picture of my dad and mom, And me when I was a kid. Seeing those made my heart heavy. I missed those times.

Today is my birthday. To be honest, I don't really have anything planned since I suck at those kinds of things.

Plus, I think of birthdays as a normal day like the others. But a lot of people think it's  special. I don't mind it tho, as long as they are happy.

Don't get me wrong, I want to be happy on my special day But I can't somehow.

because it was also the day that dad died.

I closed my eyes and thought of that day. The day when he passed away 3 years ago.

Flashback

"Due to the Breakdown of his lungs, I'm sorry to tell you but your brother might not live for long" The tone of the doctor's voice was full of sorrow.

Those words.

It got stucked in my mind for so long.

I want to forget and believe that he will be alive and healthy someday.

But i'm just lying to myself.

I felt...agony.

My aunt stared blankly and the doctor. Tears were already forming on her eyes. She puts her hands onto her Face while she cries in pain.

Why was this happening to me? To us?

This is all Bulls*it.

Why...dad...

"Dad..." i buried my Face above my knees and cried. All the memories of me and dad popped in my head instantly. I cried even more.

Please God...Help my dad.

🎶

"Happy birthday ayumi" even though dad can't speak too well, he still manages to greet me in a sweet way.

I smiled and hugged him. "Thank you dad! I love you"

I acted cheerful so that dad doesn't worry. I want to spend every Moment with him as much as possible.

"I love you too" He ruffled my hair. "So What Present do you want to get today?" He added.

"Present? Hmmm.." I tapped my index finger onto my chin.

"For you to get better soon" a part of me is saying that I shouldn't lose hope..

"Aigoo. I'm getting better already don't you see?" He showed the muscle on his biceps. Which I find funny. He still jokes around like always.

I rolled my eyes at him and chuckled "I can see it very clearly dad"  he pouted.

"Give me a minute" dad said while he gets something under his bed. It was a small blue box with a dark blue ribbon tied unto it. 

I was in shock when I saw it "dad?"

"I'm sorry if this was the only gift that I can give you. I just asked a favor to your aunt to make this for you" He sheepishly said.

"Dad, You shouldn't have-"

"It's okay. I wanted to give it to you"

He handed me the Box. I untied the ribbon and opened it. It was a locket.

there was a picture of my mom and him. I noticed that there was a bump on mom's tummy.

It was me.

My vision got foggy..Tears started to fell again. I don't want to cry but I can't take it.

I don't want dad to leave me...

I hugged him so tight while I cried. He did the same thing.

Times have passed.

I remembered his last words before he passed away shortly.

"Continue living. Always remember that I will be at your side. Your mom and I love you. Don't ever forget that"

End of Flashback