Sorry Love (18+)

1. J

Today is the day... when everything gets turned around. My life is about to change forever and I don't know if anything will ever be the same afterwards.
     I have to leave for Ohio, leaving Jordan, Purbury High, my best friends, even Callie's Boutique. It's definitely going to be a change in scenery and lifestyle. I'm so close to graduating when my mom who forgot I existed finally realizes the things I've done. I hate that woman why does she get to say what happens to me? My 18th birthday is in two months.
I'd already began packing a week ago I had three bags filled and probably two more to go. A soft knock at my door catches my attention,
   “Come in,” my voice was soft barely above a whisper. The door hinges creak as whoever was behind it pushed it open. Looking down at my hands as I fiddle with my fingers to distract myself; I hear his voice and my whole body stiffness,
   “Tess your dad let me in he said that you probably needed my support right now, and Tess,” he paused letting out a long sigh, “listen, I... Well, I don't really know where to begin,” he stopped again rubbing the back of his neck while simultaneously pinching the bridge of his nose, “Just, forget what I said over the phone I was being an a-hole... I still love you. With my whole being baby girl. Please take me back. I support you I don't want this to be what breaks us up!”
     With tears falling down his face I grabbed his hand from my place on the floor, squeezing his hand to reassure him. I don't know what I want to do at this point. My thoughts going a mile a minute I manage to spit out, “J I need some time, I mean what if we don't work out anyways. What if you were right what if I am going to only get worse. There are so many what-ifs Jordan, like what if long distance doesn't work out like we want it to. You do realize I won't be back to Maine for another six months possibly more depending on how the treatment goes! Don't you understand I'm not even sick! I'm fine healthy beautiful! Finally, starting to love myself!”
Jordan sat on the floor next to me, pulling my onto his lap. Placing a kiss on my temple he held me there and whispered sweet nothing's into my ear. My eyes began to flutter shut as sleep took me to a dream land.