The Dynamic of self destruction

"Time will still tick away"

I will fly away one day.

Let it be from the mass
Destruction
That claims me.

Let it be the pills
That I rely on
To keep me
Smiling.

Let it be the alcohol
That numbs my mind
Into forgetting.

Let it be from
Gravity
When I finally jump
For lift off.

Let it be from the
Razor
That has quickly become
My
Helping hand,
My listening ear,
My closest companion.

Let it be from anything
Just make it fast-
Let me scream-
Let me go-
I want to lose all control
Before I destroy
Again.

I will fly away one day...

And I feel it is fast approaching.