Another they appeared. I was standing infront of the desk where one of the staff is seating in a chair. He's now holding my files and records. I got my hands behind me while watching him. I wish that what I'm doing now will be the right decision I could ever make in my life.
"I suppose it's only natural with your grades." he said holding a new piece of file again. It was it. Where the information for my new habitat is written.
"Shido High School, huh?" he hissed, loud enough that I can hear him. I'm so thankful that I made it best. My grades are good and its not that hard for me to enter such school easily.
"It's the best of the best." he continued. He's like hesitating for me to transfer in another school. If I only have choice I won't. But I'm doing this for her. Because I love her.
He took a sigh and looked at me.
"But have you discussed this thoroughly with your parents?" he asked trying to look some piece of reason in opposing what I want. I didn't nod. It was a rush decision I made and failed me to asked permission to my parents first. So I decided to go home and asked a consent from them.
*Home*
"Shido High School? But that's. . ." dad's voice's so loud that it can reach outside the house. He didn't continued what he is saying as mom said something.
"It's a boarding school." Yeah, as what mom's said, it's a boarding school. Where all students studying in there must live in there for good while staying at school. Obviously, if my plan works, I have to live in their alone, away with my parents, alone from her presence, Mayu.
"Yep. Three years in a dorm." I answered, making them feel comfortable that I'm already aware of what I'm about to reach.
"No. I won't allow it." Mom replied. I have to understand her, she's my mom. But she have to understand me also. I'm just being independent.
"What if something happens to you?" she reacted looking into my eyes like she's in deep worry.
"I can take care of myself." I answered without any hesitation. Yeah, I'm old enough to handle myself without asking a hand to others. I can, maybe, I can.
Dad bend her knees low high trying to put himself a serious position for a serious talk.
"Takuma, normally this would have been great news," he took a sigh not releasing my eyes on him "but. ." he was began to finish his speech but I easily interrupted it.
I decided already. It's the only way. All my life I have been relying to everyone around me, and made me feel so useless. I need to prove them that there is still a chance for me not to be babysit by them.
"It'll be a memorable experience before I die." I said and felt a bit hurt in my chest. I remained to look like I'm calm.
"I'm glad I know about my lifespan."I said leaning on the couch.
"I can try to do anything." The pain through my chest is getting high but I still remained calm. It hurs knowing the fact that I've never been in a point like doing what I want to do. It's a relief for me thinking that someday, I'll be found myself doing things beyond my limitations without thinking when I die and how I will going to die. They paused a bit. There we're both stunned of what I just said. Something's crampling my chest like its making me to feel like to close my eyes in pain.
"So I don't have regrets." Mom bowed a little, dad remained his eyes on me. I know they will understand me. And its making me feel happy, but thinking about someone I might hurt in this plan of mine. My chest still hurts, its getting worser. I will hurt Mayu's feelings. I will make her to cry again. But its better for her to cry for a one last cry, forget me after, and feeling dumb when I died.
'Mayu, I love you.
I really do.
But I have to do this,
that's how I love you.'
'Being far from you feels like I'm alone to everyone.
But you're happiness is more greater than mine.
You're always thinking about me.
Now let me be the one to concern about you.'
I'm sorry.
"It's Mayu, right?" I got surprised at what mom said. Brow up, and it's bringing me back to the fact again. I hold my pain.
"You want to go because she is, right?" I paused a bit. I need to find a way to escape her question.
"It's got nothing to do with her." Mom is right. She's really my mom and she can read me well. It's better for me to be alone and hurt myself. Than to be near at her side and hurting her everyday thinking about I'm going to leave her one near day.
Mayu Taneda's Point of View
Cookies are making me feel like I'm going to burst! It's my thousandth time around but I guess it's still not good, it's still taste as bad as a dog poop. I opened the oven and covered my mouth, hold my breath as smoky fog fild around my face. I coughed.
I drop the tray in the table weakly and watch the black-american cookies. It was burned. I was about to throw it in a full trash bin when I heard the door bell's ringing.
Who in the earth would visit me at this early?
I removed the path holder and headed to the door.
It rang again.
"Wait. I'm on it." I said to inform who maybe he/she is that I heard the bell.
I opened the door and was schoked as I saw who she was.
It was Mrs. Kakinouchi, Takumas mother.
