The Working Mind of Thisbe Tringket

chappie 15!!!

Hey Derek here.

I'm freaking out. Not a little but alot.

I can't let myself get close to her. I'm just going to end up hurting her. But I'm slowly losing the strength to stay away from her. I won't even let myself have her out of my sight for more then three minutes.

Something was deffinatly wrong with me.

I knew i couldn't get close to her.

But at the same time I couldn't stay away from her. If I stayed away from her any longer, then i was going to go insane.

Not being able to hug her, just feel her warm skin touching mine, kills me.

And that kiss.

I couldn't even begin to explain that kiss.

I just knew, as soon as I kissed her, that I was in trouble.

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_____2 years ago_____

"Your sending me where?"

"Its a boarding school. To help with your... uh... adjustment."

"To what?"

"I honestly don't know how to explain your... uh... situation."

"Dad just spit it out! I know I'm different. I think i deserve some answers for once. What's wrong with me?''

"Nothings wrong with you son. Its your ancestors..."

"Who grandpa Henry? Or grandpa Ed?"

"There fathers."

"Oh. What does our family have to do with me going to this school?"

"There are people like you there."

"What am I?"

"Your special."

"I don't want to be special. I just want to be Derek."

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_____2 days after that._____

*poke*

*poke*

*poke*

"What!?" I snapped turning in my seat to face two very pretty girls, and a boy staring a me.

"Your the new kid right?" Said the boy.

"Ya. What's it to you?"

"Pissy." The two girls said at the same time.

I turned back around and glared out the window.

"So what are you?"

"I don't know." I muttered under my breath.

"Your rents never told you hu?"

I turned around again to see the three people in front of me trying to hold back laughter.

"Oo i see anger! Ten bucks says..." the boy interrupted the red haired girl by covering her mouth with his hand.

"Shut up Alice! He doesn't know anything yet." He growled at her.

"No tell me. I'm not a baby."

"You won't believe us till we get to the school anyways." The black haired girl piped up while the other girl just nodded.

"Why? I'm so sick of people not telling me stuff. I deserve to know about myself."

"Fine." The boy said uncovering the reds mouth and putting his hands up in mock surrender.

"Wearwolf!" The red sputtered, "ten bucks says he is a wearwolf."

"Nah. He's nothing like me. He couldn't be a where wolf. Plus the eyes are different." The boy said shaking his head.

"So maybe he's just a different breed." The red argued.

I sat and listened to them bicker about whether i was a wearwolf or not.

Wait! Wearwolf?

Wearwolfs aren't real.

"If they wernt real, i wouldn't be metaphorically standing before you right now." Said the boy making me realise i said it outloud

"Impossible. Impossible." I muttered under my breath only half listening to there conversation that continued without me.

''Great now you broke him. Good job Liam."

"Me? Your the one that told him hes a wearwolf."

"He totally is."

"No he's not. If it were that simple his parents would have told him. What he is must be hard to explain."

''Oo! Maybe he's a double breed?"

"That could deffinatly be it."

''Or... wait what that mark on his chin?"

"I don't know he probably got cut."

"No it looks like... what the hell!?"

*gasp*

''It can't be."

"We haven't had one of him since his dad!?"

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_____1 year ago_____

"Derek calm down."

"IM TRYING"

"Try harder!''

''YOU THINK I WANT TO SHIFT?"

"Of coarse not, but you don't always have control over it!"

''GET OUT OF HERE SAM!"

"No I'm not leaving because you not going to shift.''

"I AM SHIFTING!"

''Wh...what?"

"GET OUT!"

She started to back up as the tingling started to work its way up from my toes. But this wasn't the worst part. It was uncomfortable, sure, but the worst part was never knowing what happened while i was... changed. I don't know who, or how many i killed. I knew i always killed someone though. When ever i would wake up after, i would have blood on my hands and my mouth would taste like blood. It was a horrible feeling. I'v tried to kill myself. But i laterally can't be killed. If i die ill just transform into someone else, but who ever i was i was still the same thing. This is my 28th life. I'v killed myself 28 times. By now I'v just given up. Accepted it. There's nothing I can do about it but try and keep myself from shifting. And i'v been doing really well. I haven't shifted in three months.

But hearing that Sam cheated on me sent me over the edge. I was shifting and she wasn't leaving fast enough.

The last thing i remember is her screaming.