Where It Lies

Chapter 2;

Having Lucas at a young age wasn't what I had planned for my life, not in the slightest. Having him at eighteen just right before I was meant to go to university, was not what I had planned. Falling in love with a seven pound, ten ounce baby boy was not what I had planned. 

Life is not planned.

No matter how much you try, life has its way of throwing curve balls at you. Most of the time those curve balls can be caught, but sometimes life itself spits one out when your back is turned; knocking you down and taking the air from your lungs. 

It isn't a pleasant hit to the back, the fall not long enough to catch yourself before you smack yourself into the concrete below. Hell no. The impact of it all is too consuming, even before you collide with the ground beneath you know the pain it'll cause. So, you prepare yourself.

That still doesn't work, does it? 

You crash. 

Hard.

You know there will be pain, but you still don't know how much.

Life.

Sitting there with Jasper as we finish our pizzas and the radio playing softly beside us, the chill in the night air just right for us. I lose my mind to the light noise from the woods behind the store .

"Clara?" I hear from beside me, looking over to see Jasper handing me a rolled blunt. "Wanna smoke?" 

This is why he is my best friend.

Taking it from his hand I put the right end in my mouth, letting him reach over and light it for me. 

Drown me out.

I take a long drag from it as he takes away his lighter, letting the smoke fill my lungs. 

Finally.

"Thank you. I left mine at home because I had Lucas with me." I say as I breathe the smoke out.

"That's what friends are for. I just expect you to have me next time."

With a slight nod I glance over to him, seeing himself lighting up another for himself. With the cannabis chaos going around, we were on edge at first for our use of it. But, with it being now medically legalized, people are more open to it then you would think.  Considering it has many properties within the plant for medicine, it will be soon that is used everywhere. 

Until then, the federal government believes it doesn't hold these properties, more on the pharmaceutical companies sides. I on the other hand, can contribute to thousands of others who it has helped. 

After Lucas's birth I was in grave pain, the pain pills the doctors have given me not hitting any kind of spot. I tried cannabis for the first time two weeks after his birth. Five years later, here I am; sitting with Jasper on a roof smoking. 

With the time passing and the blunts now almost gone, I decide it's time to call Lucas one more time. I hear the dial tone as I press the phone to my ear. 

"Hello, mommy?" 

"Lucas, baby. Hey." I say softly. "I just want to call and say goodnight. Mommy is thinking of you during her break. I'll see you Sunday, okay sweetie?"