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(Hyuk's POV)

I rush into the room as I see unconscious Taekwoon hyung struggling to keep breathing and his heart about to stop. The doctors were looking at each other when they notice his condition was even worse. I looked at the doctor's face and I couldn't understand why he was not moving.

He showed me some papers signed by hyung. When did he signed this? Basically if his lungs or his heart stopped, the doctor's hands were tied, he didn't give his consent to resuscitation procedures. But I couldn't care less...

The equipment was right there. I did what I had to do to keep him alive... even if it was only for a little longer I had to. And doctor Lee didn't really stop me. In fact, he said he understood how I felt and that his hands were tied BUT he was happy that I was there.

- You were not supposed to do that. – he said as he proceeded to leave the room - Please DO stay. (Just in case we need you again.)

Lee Hongbin gave me even more shocking information about hyung... Apparently he had been asking about certain medicine and drugs... Hongbin was also fond of Taekwoon hyung and he did not agree with his decision... We both wanted hyung to live even against his will.

So I made a deal with him.

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(Ravi's POV)

Hongbin pulled me away from my sister and the doctors since he saw how desperate I was... I tried to be calmed but I still could not believe he was... gone.

- You are telling me this thing has been killing him inside out all this time...

- There is no way you could have not noticed, his health deteriorating, symptoms include tiredness, lack of appetite, weight loss, ... - Hongbin was now talking to me as a doctor telling me things that other people had already noticed and warned me about, including my sister...

- Did he do this to himself?

- I'm afraid that's the case. – Hongbin said to me as a secret as he showed me the bottle of medicine Taekwoon carried on his pocket - At first he was indeed sick so it was normal that he would ask us about some medicines and their side effects as he tried to avoid taking dangerous stuff... but I think depression just took the worse of him and he found a perfect way to end his life without making his intentions obvious. He was getting himself sicker and slowly making himself weaker and basically living a slow death. Even if you dissect his body you won't find anything pointing to a suicide and

- I did this.

I saw how Taekwoon's hands kept shaking and instead of holding them I pushed him into the abysm... 

- He already made arrangements for this moment. He... he found a way to leave without being involved in a scandal. Natural death it is... just a sad story of a weak boy from a wealthy family.... – Hongbin said as I felt disgusted.

- Please don't say anything else.

I wanted him to leave me but not like this.

They sent me home and I opened the box the other boy had given me...

Some papers and... a video...

"   If you are watching this it means I already went to sleep and won't open my eyes again. Please don't be sad about it. I'm smiling, can't you see? So... smile for me too.

    You have made me so happy and I'm thankful, really. I was happy, just remember that. I know how hard you tried. But I couldn't make you happy so I'm sorry.

    Now you are finally free. You can now be happy and not worry about me anymore. You can be happy with HIM now. I'm leaving it all to you and him, so the two of you can be happy together. Don't hurt yourself and him anymore, you love each other, I know he makes you happy so... please just be happy. Live a happy life, for me as well.

    I love you, Kim Wonsik. I always did and I always will. Thanks for letting me love you."

I couldn't stop my tears, I cried and screamed as I saw his smiling face in the screen. I did this. I killed this angel. I thought he was like mother, I forgot how pure he was... Why did he fall in love with someone like me?

-:-

- Happy anniversary~ - I said as I gave him a present and looked at him opening the box – It's just something small but

- Wonsik...

- It's a special cup for your coffee. From me to you.

- But why?

- Well, we've been married for about a month and also... we met a day like today... well not the same month but... I just felt like giving you something and Hongbin was nice enough to get this and

- I love it – he said as he kissed my cheek – I'll treasure it. You didn't have to give me anything but... this was cute of you.

-:-

- What is this? – he said as he looked at the bracelet I had put on his wrist.

- Happy anniversary, Taekwoonie, our first year~

- You don't have to give me so many presents, you know? You making me happy this year is more than enough as a gift.

- Taekwoon – I said as I hugged him – I picked this one specially, it looks good on you.

- I love it. – he said as he smiled while looking at my eyes - It's telling me I'm yours only... It's so pretty – his eyes smiled as he caressed the bracelet.

- Looks good on you... If you like it so much, what will you give me in return?

- What do you... want...?

- YOU, just that. All the money in this world could never compare... - we laughed...

-:-

We WERE happy. He DID love me. And I DID fell for him.

But I broke his heart. I should be dead.

   "  Live a happy life, for me as well. "

How can I do that if you are gone... ?

I don't even deserve the easy escape of death. I deserve to live and suffer for even if I die I would never be able to see you again, I can't be by your side...