Married

15. A new you

(Ravi's POV)

He said that guy by his side was not my Taekwoon... But he looked just like him, I would recognize him even after five years... yes, this guy was blonde and my Taekwoon would never use that hair color but even his name was Taekwoon, how can it be a coincidence? I'm going crazy... But how can this be?

I wanted to see him again.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

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These five years I've tried my best to be a better me. I'm no longer that lazy asshole who just pretended to work, I was doing my best, also I had to build a good image to make my little sister proud and that I wouldn't hurt her reputation... I know mother will try to marry her to some wealthy guy but I hope it's someone she loves... Taekwoon's mother used to come frequently to take care of her shares but now she has decided to trust in me since she feels tired... Taekwoon's sister and her husband work in one of our departments but she never really liked me so... I guess if I can earn a bit of her respect it's enough...

I know Taekwoon wanted me to marry Jaehwan but... I can't tie him to me and this kind of life. He's a free boy and he still plays with me from time to time but I really want to be more responsible and professional so... if we ever meet we mostly talk as two adults would and not as spoiled brats or bad boys... He said he was proud of me but... the one I want to see proud of me is my Taekwoonie and my sister. I still cherish our pictures and I hope one day I can finally say I deserve to join his side...

My angel... if only you could see me become the kind of man I should have been when we were together...

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I went to that little store again, after all the reason I went there was because of business but... now all I cared about was...

- Oh, hello – the blonde angel said – Uhm, Hyukkie told me... you confused me with someone else... I-I'm sorry... for your lost...

- Oh. So he told you – I smiled at him – I didn't mean to scare you.

- It's okay...

I showed him a picture of Taekwoon

- His name is Jung Taekwoon, isn't he a handsome guy?

- He really does look like me... well... a-a bit

Han Sanghyuk came to his side and I could see how close they were, blonde Taekwoon was so clingy and that young boy acted all grown up, I wonder if he also felt the same way about Taekwoon back then... Well, I guess life was good to him so he found him before I did... I bet he would have wished for me to never find them.

Sanghyuk said he had no interest in having business with me and that I should also not bother his boyfriend. I asked him why he was not there for the funeral and he said he wouldn't have stand it and also that his good friend Taekwoon needed him here.

- When did you two meet?

- That is none of your business, Mr. Kim.

- There is no way you didn't notice how similar they look...

- Listen, I failed to protect Jung Taekwoon but I will not make the same mistake with Taekwoonie hyung. You think he doesn't know how hot he is? But the fact is that he picked me and I won't give him to you.

Taekwoon was a nice guy. He was a simple guy and nothing seemed to make him mad. I wish my Taekwoon could have lived as freely as he does. When he goes outside to do some deliveries is when I find my chance to walk by his side. He still feels it's awkward to walk by my side since I can't help but look at his face and think of my lost love... but somehow we became friends even against his boyfriend's will.