Here I am again lying at the top of my bed,
Thinking what lies in my future up ahead.
Two years from now I'll be graduating,
That's if I won't have any subject repeating.
The clock keeps ticking and the time is running fast,
I just wish there's something I can do to make it last.
Even thou sometimes I wish I could graduate already,
The truth is I don't want my life to be steady.
Outside, I am a happy-go-lucky type of person,
I just go with whatever the reason.
The people around me are the ones controlling my life,
Every day I feel like I'm being stabbed million times with a knife.
I don't blame them thou they said they knows what's best for me,
But would I know I don't even know who "me" is, see?
This is my problem, ever since little I always put a mask on,
I lost who I really am and even my heart became stone.
I act like a child so that I could always put a happy face,
When problem arise I just put them aside in one place,
My friends told me that it's wrong because it will only get bigger,
I know that but I don't want to have wrinkles either.
I don't want to grow up like everybody else,
Grownups are always on the go or in a mess.
They seem to forgot to enjoy the little things around them,
Whenever there's problem they always look for others to blame.
I don't know how I'm going to face reality,
When all I know about life is a tragedy.
I wish I could find who I really am before I run out of time,
So that I can face my future without any regret of mine.
