THE COPE

PROLOGUE

The first time i saw my father beat on my mother i was 3 years old. My father just came home from working in construction, in the busy city of Daegu. He must of had a hard day at work, he reek of beer and piss. He comes yelling "암캐" (amkae ) (which is slut in Korean)   banging on the door that me and my mother was in. As we in he room i can hear my father slurring  and cursing , while my mother gets up she tells me "wait here my son, i'm going to calm down papa" and she went out side to the living where my father is weeping now, and then he starts to beat on my mother, as i hear my mother cry , i too cry , slowly as i go underneath my parents bed, and since that day and 6 more years that happen.

My parents are now divorced, and now i am 9. I never tell my mother nothing, i mean nothing at all, I feel like if i told her that i feel down, or that i don't love myself, even the thoughts of not being here, will hurt her even more than she is, then that would make me feel even more horrible because, i don't even know why im here im a damn burdan.

The first time i met RM i was 11. My mother drop me off to the park so i can have some " father/son time." As go to the sand box, there this egg headass looking boy at me, staring, looking shook. So as i'm inside of the sandbox, the same egg looking boy ask me, " are these your dump trunks?" but me being socially awkward i didn't answer, So he just invite himself in and play with MY DUMP TRUNKS, but i brush it off. It was silence for a good 2 minutes and he asks me " what is your name and age? " im taehyung but you can call me V and im 11. and you? "Im Namjoon but call me RM, and im 12. That means Im you Hyung!" as me and him chatt it up, my mother comes and pick me up, and his mother was watching him at the park, and i guess they like that we was talking to each other, i don't really known, but since that day we been friends.

Now next up is the oldest , I met Jin through RM,it was my 13th birthday and RM had the connections for us to just anything i wanted for my BDAY with Jin. jins Mom was out of town so we have a free house for a whole 3 days, and my mother thought we was going to be there with " adult supervision" so we was all set. I won't say Jin is weird, But Yeah, HE HAS THE BIGGEST SHOULDERS IN THE WORLD. RM was 14 and he was just starting experiencing with women, marijuana, and pills. So as we at the house RM is on the phone and tell us that he is going to step outside for a couple of minutes. while where waiting for RM to finish his conversation, Jin starts a convo with me, or at least try's to. He ask me how is my home life , and i told him i don't like talking about it, that isn't nun of his business and don't ask me again. I think i brush him the wrong way, but He is always asking questions about me and my well being and how is  Lilly  (ill get to her in a bit). So after that awkward interaction went down , Jin goes to the Washroom, RM comes in with a bag of white pills, and gives me one, while i read it out loud "XA..Naxs" RM says SSSHHHHHHHH, don't be loud, jin do not want those in his house, and he doesn't do them, so take it and hurry up. this is the first time i actually felt numb, i wasn't as depress and i felt good, i was soooooo mellow out, seem like everything jin would do was funny, even his corny dad jokes.

Now its Suga, Jungkook, and Jhope. I met the trio at school, Me and RM was In PE and this song came on and suga was rapping the song, jungkook and jhope was busting a move, it was dope and i was realizing that all three of them was in my classes, and Suga one time caught me in the act of taking an xanax and say something in a sarcastic way, "that's a strong aspirin".

The first time i lay my eyes on Lilly was in the 10th grade. She was this awkward little thing, but she had such Pretty skin, nice teeth, Pretty black hair, nice thighs, she was very different from the girls i usually see in school. Also she love old movies, which was a big PLUS for her. i think the first time all the boys and even her notice my flaws with my drug use and my anxiety is when i try to ask her out and i fainted.

A/N 

hi im lanaya but yall can call me naya, im 16 and im from the states, this is my first story and i really want to get it pumping give me suggestions please(chapter 1 is coming soon)  follow my ig also **** lilly is to how you look, or how  you would imagine**** 

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