My issues and problems all come flooding back just because I remembered one bad thing. One bad memory and it all has to be here, in my mind but not at the back of it like it usually would. It's at the front of my mind. I thought it could be possible that my bad thoughts are having some sort of entertaining party as they aren't taking the usual effect on me. My thoughts are still there, my memories and my wishes and regrets, they're all there. Here. But they don't depress me as much as they used to. They don't get me to squeeze into a little ball and hibernate. In fact I want to do stuff. I want to get out spread my wings. I want to fight. I want to fight for what I want most I life. Unfortunately not who I want in life as I'm sure they'd be better off without me. I am determined to win. If I have to ignore the people I care most about at school then so be it. If I have to sit lonely at lunch and break listing reasons why and thinking of plans...plans to win. I will fight and I will fall but I sure as hell won't be beaten. I may seem like that girl that everybody hates and makes fun of but believe me. When I want something...I have he power to get it. I just need to be skill full. Careful and tactical. No one gets what they want easily. They have to be willing to sacrifice things...unfortunately like friends. But then again it isn't a sacrifice if you know that they're better off without you. I make it sound like I'm mad or something haha, I'm not. I'm just stating facts. I'm in one of those hose serious moods, which is why I am now going to continue my listing.
Play time ends now. He wants a fight? Well then we're bringing it...
...Hard.
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Is It Meant To Be?
Teen FictionA girl is cast to the side, more ore less by her own choice. She wants to venture through the lonely life. It's a chance she's willing to take.
