October 6th
I'm exhausted, but I can't sleep. My mind is running wild. I found a bottle of Prozac in the bathroom. I switched from Prozac to Zoloft a couple months ago, so it must be old. There wasn't a label, but I know what the pills look like. I'm scared Ashton saw it. If he knows about all my problems I'm worried he'll be scared of me. I'm shaking and crying quietly. I don't want Ash to hear me. I'm going to try to sleep again.
October 10th
I love the rain. My insomnia is chills out when it rains. I guess it's nice to see the exterior match my interior. I hope it rains forever.
October 17th
Ash and I just got invited to a party for Halloween! WOOHOO! I'm going as Violet Harmon and Ashton is going as Tate Langdon, both from American Horror Story.
October 20th
There is a woman at the hospital today who had cancer. I had to tell her she is going to die. I wish I could deliver some good news.
October 28th
My costume is coming together. I temporary blonde hair dye. For Ashton I got a shirt that says "normal people scare me" and face paint. I got cigarettes and a Violety sort of outfit. I AM SO PUMPED.
