The clock read 12:23 am
Dan looked away from the clock and back at the sleeping Arin next to him; he smiled at him imaging him with his messy hair.
Dan imagined him putting in a bun again like he did for Arin every morning or feeling it against his lips every time he kissed his forehead.
Arin slightly shifted over and mumbled something in his sleep; Dan smiled at the adorable man and kissed the top of his head. He couldn't sleep that night since his thoughts and fears kept nipping at him, he kept thinking about Arin. But one thought kept coming back 'you're nothing without him, when he dies you'll be alone and depressed. You'll be back in the state you were 6 years ago...'
He tried and ignored it, he honestly tried his best, but he couldn't. Dan imagined himself 6 years ago; on the street and selling drugs just so he could scrape by, running from police sirens.
This brought tears to his eyes. He didn't want to go back to that way of living, Arin saved him and now he's leaving!
Dan slowly took Arin's hands into his own, careful not to wake him and leaned over.
"I love you so much Arin... You've done so much for me, I don't want you to leave me... No one does... You've made such a positive impact... Will you promise me something? Wherever you go when you pass away, don't forget me... Please" Dan whispered into his ear as his hands started shaking.
He let go of Arin, holding back tears. He looked at his sleeping husbands face before rolling over and falling asleep.
"Never forget me Arin. Never."
