tiptoe • zane hijazi

iv

a scary world of screams

• j&m chain •

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phoebe hale stayed overnight at zane and heath's place, on a couch once again. she finally fell asleep, but as soon as her mind switched off visions started to appear. the image of nate's evil grin couldn't leave her subconscious. her dreams were being haunted by that one moment from that one morning.

she woke up, sweating and panicking. her mind was screaming with emotion, overflowing with dark thoughts and memories. she was a grenade, that could implode with one simple throw.

she then sleepily clambered into zane's bed, not able to spend the night alone. she needed comfort and safety. zane had exactly that.

"i'm right here" he whispered, patting her shoulder.

she shuddered at the sudden contact but, through her anxiety, managed to see that his intentions were innocent. 

our bodies
touched
by all the wrong people
that even
with a bed full of safety
we are afraid
-
rupi kaur

nate had broken her and it frankly wasn't fair. zane was very worried about her and he just didn't know what he could possibly do to help. he had known her for 2 days only and could see how much that morning had changed her. she became anxious and insecure.

she would need approval for everything she was doing. she would overthink everything she did. she would doubt herself. she would blame herself. she would scold herself.

zane's concern for her grew more and more with each sign of instability that was brought to the surface. he was now wide awake, cursed by her vulnerability, while she was wide awake, cursed by the same vulnerability.

zane couldn't be this worried about her all the time. it was becoming an obsession. he didn't want to show pity because that wasn't what phoebe needed and it probably wouldn't help anything either.

zane and heath were the only ones that knew about her rape story. they were the only ones who had the slightest idea of what she was going through.

phoebe eventually snuggled into zane, realising she needed his warmth to help her go to sleep. zane hugged her right back. she fell asleep, curled up in his arms. zane fell asleep, holding the broken girl that he was forming a slight crush on.

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this was a short chapter but woopsie doo, what can ya do?

i love zane so much in this book lmao (& irl obviously)

k bye lovelies

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much love :)

(song: darklands, the jesus & mary chain)