Who to love. *ON HOLD; WRITER'S BLOCK*

Who to love (janoskians fanfiction<3

umm hi guys, im new so i don't know how to navigate this properly like adding who the characters are played as and writing a blurb and all that but i hope you enjoy it.

Chapter 1-trust (part 1)

We used to live in Australia, but my grandmother  had died and my father had decided to move to England because there were too many memories which made my father upset. I was only 2 years old when god decided that my grandmother needed to go to heaven, I'm sure she's in heaven she was amazing; even though i did'nt remember her much. My mother had shown me many videos they recorded. She was friendly and bright, I was proud of her. My father said i used to hang out a lot with my neighbours, I couldn't remember them much either, all I knew was that there was 3 of them. Two of them were really chubby and the other had long hair. I did'nt miss Australia that much, so I lived a happy life in England. Creating many memories and realising that England and everyone special to me was my world. My father kept our home in Australia because of his grief.

My dad’s stupid girlfriend; she ruined my life. She always interferes with everything me and dad do. I know that my sister and I are really hard on her but she deserves it, I loved England, I loved college. I slammed the door behind me; there was too much shouting for my liking. Who does she think she is, “go to your room” seriously? It’s not my house; I cannot call that place home. So maybe that was my house but home is in England with my family and my next door neighbours and my Blake. Why can’t life be simple, trust is something I do not give away easily. It has to earned, she comes into our lives and she thinks she can change it. She wants me to trust her, she is not my mother. so i'm back in australia hurrah. gosh. 

All the memories flooded back from the past, all the fights I had with my mother. I miss her, I miss my mom. Why did she have to leave us forever? I crossed the road, the trees stirred side to side as I experienced flashbacks of when I had to say goodbye to Blake and Emily and everyone else.

Flashback

It was the day I had to say goodbye, my last day at school was filled with nothing but crying. My bestfriend Emily cried the most, she trembled and shivered. We hugged each other a million times, reinforcing all the tears we kept back. I could'nt control myself, I cried and cried. What hurt me most was that I had to say  goodbye to Blake last, a proper goodbye. I hanged out with our special group for most of the day. During lessons my teacher let us off so I could say goodbye to everyone.

Harry cried so much, he pulled me into his arms. he was like my brother and i loved him too, we stood there for a while. he rested his chin on top of my head as i sobbed into his chest.

"i'm going to miss you so much, i just don't know how emily will deal with all of this. we're your bestfriends. and of course not having you to brighten up my day is just going to have an effect on me." he paused and looked at me as the hot tears ran down my face. his eyes glimmered with the thin line of tears brimming up all over again.  ready to splash down his already wet cheeks, it only made me sob harder.

"we decided, mum, emily and i. we're gonna come visit you every year. and well, we have'nt talked to Blake yet but im sure he'll come too."  i broke the embrace we shared and looked at harry's face. it was a mix of being serious and full of sorrow, gosh, i could'nt handle it anymore. i had to show i was strong. i mustered up all the little happy emotions of memories and gave him a small smile. that was all i could do.

He brought his hand next to mine so i could take hold of it. i knew where we headed to, his sister, my best friend. as soon as i saw her, i let go of harry's hand and ran to emily. i embraced her in my arms as we sobbed. we could'nt stop.

"Im going to miss you sooo so so much, you don't know how many things will change. I'll have no one to walk home with me, i won't be seeing you everyday. we'll stop having our sleepovers. Why can't you just stay at my house. I asked my mom and everything" Emily struggled to keep back tears while I looked away, knowing that i was gonna start crying again if I saw her face.