One Step Backwards

Chapter - 8

Kiara's P.O.V.

I was shocked. Me and Ashton had it all and he just ruined it by some dumb selection. I was crying all night and all day. I didn't feel like seeing anyone, so I told Mia to explain to my family not to bother me. When I walked alone from that treehouse, I didn't care anymore, my trust was stomped and crushed by my loved one. How could he? I couldn't believe Ashton was even capable of tht. I narrowly and slowly walked forward on the path, that led me back home as my shadow followed behind. My eyes barely squinted trying to see my broken world. I closed my eyes. I felt my feet leading my body to the side where the luscious grass tickled my feet. I didn't feel anything. I just didn't care. Everything was gone. But what wasn't gone was the selection. The grass led me to another path. This one was more narrow, like everybody forgotten it and haven't been taken care of. I just kept my eyes closed, hoping it would lead me somewhere wonderful. The skinny, rocky, short path led me to the meadow.

The meadow was my medicine. The pain I strongly had just went away. I looked straight where I could see the lake silently rippling while the beautiful yellow and pink sunset reflected in it. The meadow was breathtaking. The wind carefully dried my tears out, while my eyes soaked in the view that lay in front of me. I couldn't help it but stay there for awhile. I flashed back through my mind, finding I could relax on. I slowly walked towards the heart of my soul and the meadow. The peach blossom. The peach blossom stood there waiting for me to arrive and lay on it peacefully like I was part of nature. If I was part of nature I would be a very unusual plant, that would hum to the winds whistle. Unfortunately, I'm not that plant that would happily and peacefully sit there all day, everyday and sing. I'm a human being.That has emotions, problems, sorrows, and happiness. Being a human being is trying to figure paths out that would lead to your future. I could see the sun slowly dipping down into the lake while the evening emerged out. It felt as if the sky changed colour from blue, to dark blue and the sun from bright yellow, to a moon not so bright white. I smiled slightly remembering that I was in a loved place, that always gave me warmth no matter what. I noticed that if it gets too dark, I would already have to spend the night, because between the meadow and my town it gets too dangerous out late. So I had to leave, I didn't want to leave mutti and father worried.

I tried walking faster but my body coordinations would reject it. What else could I do when I had such a horrible day. I finally arrived home safely, happy I left those hungry beasts behind. I opened the door slowly making sure it doesn't squeak. One-third of the way I could hear the door producing a quiet squeak. I really didn't want to do this, but what kind of choice did I exactly have? I took in a very large breath, inhaling the mixture of mutti's pastry baking and the natural nature oxygen air that kept us alive. This was harder than I thought, I squeezed my body through that little opening from the door. I grinned with my teeth and closed my eyes hardly. I don't know why but making weird faces helps a lot. When I got through, probably with broken ribs I slightly closed the door while the lights flickered on. 'BUSTED.' I gasped. I was caught by mutti und vater. "Mutti...vater? I uhh- I can explain. I mean I was uh...outside." I answered guilty. I didn't want to tell them about me and Ashton being together for seven years already. I never give up secrets.

"Oh, sweetie." Mutti let her tears down. "I was so worried."

"We. We were worried, Kiara." Vater corrected mutti.

"Yes, yes indeed. Vater and me were so worried." Mutti hugged me tightly.

"Now. I don't want to be harsh or anything, but Kiara can you please explain where you were?" Vater looked serious. Mutti released me and took a step back so I could answer. 'Think, think. Kiara, think.'
"I...uh...was out. Yeah.." I nervously laughed, presently shaking my head as if agreeing with myself. 'Good job' I told myself.