'4419' [StrayKids; Changbin]✔️

8.

It's been almost a week since Changbin and I last talked. I've been going to school daily on bus, 4419, but still...no sign of him. I waked through the school's corridor and hallway hoping to see him but nope, the only place I see him is our classroom. Everytime I would wait for him to come, yes, I've become this addictive to him...I think I like him...I THINK!

He would come to class almost late everyday and I wouldn't see him in his normal seat no more but he goes over to the other side of room so basically, it's like we're separated by the two middle rows, I'm at the side where my view from the window is the school's ground, and his is the window where he sees the school hallway. I tried to approach him but every time I go close he would be on his phone or chatting with the other classmates, sometimes he would walk out and come back with a drink so I guess he goes to the canteen.

These past few days without him with me, I get stupid letters in my locker mostly saying

'Just the lonely loser you always are, loser hahaha'

I really don't know why they're doing this, but it's true...I'm just that lonely loser in school who doesn't have her parents to drop her off at school, who doesn't have her parents to come to parents conference, or cheer their kids during exam period like other kids. I used to get bullied by a few of cool girls in school, but something happened...and from then no one bothered me anymore, especially no one wanted to make friend with me..until I met Changbin.

This man has a big impact on me...I guess he really does..I've started to become addicted to him by my side. I was wondering what happened after the last time we met at my place...he just left suddenly like that..away from me.

It was already the last bell of class, time to go back to working and doing daily routine...without him. I saw him walk out of class even before I can reach him...well I mean that's what he does everyday. I was walking down the corridor to the yard and I saw Changbin and a few guys with masks and caps on and they were laughing and joking around together, beside them were two black vans that mostly idols have. I'm overthinking again.

I was about to walk away when I see a bunch of girls ran passed me towards them one of them made me fall down, all the paper I held in my hands fell off suddenly a guy appeared in front of me helping me.

"Are you ok?"  I looked up to see who it is and it turned out to be Chan. He passed me his hand so I can get up.
"Thank you, I'm fine" I told him while taking all my paper that fell off.
"Are you going back home?" He asked me
"Yes, I was about to wait for the bus"
"Let us drop you, I'm with the kids maybe I can help you by dropping you off"
"I don't want to bother you guys it's ok" I told him. But he insisted on it so I can't help but ho with his idea. Instead of going directly to the car he told me to wait at the end of the way with his padding on.

Soon, a van arrived in front of me and the door opened revealing a smiley Jisung and Jeongin in front of me, yes, don't forget I met them once. I looked in the car but no sight of Changbin...I guess I was just a temporary...friend. I told them to drop me by the park I'll walk home since I don't want them to know where I live...yet. Chan gave me his number secretly and told me to text him when I get home, it's weird how he suddenly approached me...like this. I got off, thanked them and went off to my apartment to change and head to work.
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Update: 17.02.18 ; 5:17PM