Glory Days

Part 5 : Can I Trust You

Song : Song cry   Artist : August Alsina 

Jess's P.O.V 

I never thought in a million years I'd do this but I needed help for tonight so I called Ryder over so we could talk  he should be here by now though. There was a knock at the door so I went to answer it '' Your late '' I shout at him and he just smiled and walked past me into the house '' this pace is small , how can you even live here '' he rudely says and I roll my eyes before taking a seat '' not everyone is rich like your band of dicks Ryder and besides its a two bedroom upstairs and downstairs big enough for two people '' I state '' then how can you afford the pay fee for the school '' he asked '' well dick face that's why my mother is hardly home she works as a flight attendant she makes good money enough to keep us stable '' I answer, I know your wondering since when do I give information about my personal life well me and Ryder have kinda became friends and whenever I'm not talking to the girls he's my go to '' enough about you why'd you call me over here '' he takes a seat next to me on the couch and I nervously play with my fingers I don't want him getting the wrong idea but I did call him for a reason '' I wanted your help for tonight '' I blurt out and he smiles '' what , you need my help finding an outfit I wouldn't mind '' he licks his lips and I throw a pillow at his head '' no not that , I need help like for preparing , I've never been to a game so I don't know whats gonna happen and the best person to call would obviously be the captain '' I run my hand throw my hair '' wanna impress Blake I see , don't worry I've been cheering for you guys '' he smiles '' WHAT ! oh hell no I'm not into Blake be real I just wanted to know what to do when I get there like when you have breaks can I talk to you or do I stay in the bleaches or do I just watch and cheer '' I say rather fast how dare he say that I like Blake yeah right '' sooner or later your gonna stop denying it and start imbracing because when he disappear's your gonna miss him '' he puts his hand on my shoulder and I look at it '' listen your not here to talk about guys Ryder now help me '' I shock his arm '' okay okay '' he says while pulling his hand away and we begin .

Okay Ryder actually helped me a lot now I just have to remember to relax because i'm not the one play the game , I needed to focus really hard on tonight I can't risk anyone of the silvers noticing me its already a risk going to the dumb game but its important to him and as his potential friend that I be there so there's no backing down , on my way to the math class I get pulled into a storage closet after the person locked the door he turned on the lights and I rolled my eyes at the sight of Blake's face '' you do realize that like all the other kids you can walk up to me and speak like a normal person , you don't always have to pull me into some corner of fucking closet '' I hissed and he runs his hand threw his hair and smiles '' I could but there'd be no fun in that besides I came to tell you that you have nothing to fear tonight its just a game its not like there's someone waiting for you '' he chuckles the last part and I was about to kick him in the knee but I slipped on a glove and fell but oh boy I wasn't falling alone as an instinct I pulled Blake down with me '' fuck , that hurt '' I scrunch my eyes as the pain in my back came rushing and I wasn't going to feel any better anytime soon with this loser on top of me , he finally opened his eyes and I stared at him as I blinked quickly '' If this is what you wanted you could've asked Jess '' he winked and I smiled then pulled his face a bit closer so that he can here what I'm about to say as I hold on to his shoulders '' to be honest , Blake , I kinda hoped we'd end up in a position like this , Ryder was right I can't hide it anymore '' I pulled him closer '' in fact I want it now , Blake '' I bite my bottom lip and he smirks '' oh really '' he ask and I smile before kneeing him in the prick , he curses loudly and rolls over giving me enough space to get up and he looks at me as I take a picture of him '' what the fuck Jess, that not- I thought you wanted it '' he breaths loudly did I really kick him that hard  I laugh as I open the door '' as if '' I continue laughing as I close the door behind me leaving a defenseless Blake in the schools storage closet , '' what were you doing in there '' Ashley asks leaving me me speechless and frozen think quick Jess lie '' uh.. I..um, I was looking for my pencil it fell and went under the door so I went in there looking for it '' I failed I'm a good liar when it counts but putting me on spot I'll fail she nods in the I don't believe you but I also don't want to know nod and in perfect timing Blake walks out of the closet fixing his zipper and winking at me then I look at Ash who's mouth opens wider than the scream's mouth and I quickly fast walk away .

'' So are you even going to tell me what happen in that closet '' Ash asks as we walk to our lockers after math and I shake my head '' oh come on Jess I tell you everything , I even told you out of all people that Ryder asked me out last night '' she says and I slam my locker shut so that I can see he face '' don't fuck with me '' I shake her '' if your fucking with me you know I will fuck you up Ash tell me everything '' I let her go completely forgetting that she never mentioned this to me '' uh last night he called me saying that I need to come to the game today I thought that he just wanted me to come with you but then he said he'd look pretty stupid if he didn't have his girl cheering him on , by then I was confused but he said that he'd explain everything when they win tonight's game '' she twirls her blonde hair and I look at he confused '' okay uh huh I totally get it on the bright side now you have no choice but to come to the game with me '' I bite my bottom lips as I do a little eyebrow dance and she laughs but our short joy was interrupted by a very angry Roxy but I smile to her '' we have big news Roxy '' I squeal but she waves me off '' i have some more important stuff to say , is it true that your still going to that game ?'' she stares straight at me and I roll my eyes '' I already told you I'm going and you can't stop me'' I say that last part with a bit of tone , '' me Jess I'm the last person you should be worrying about right now you have bigger problems to deal with '' she checks her phone  '' what are you talking about '' I ask and her eyes widen '' you really don't know don't you , Ace knows your going to the game '' she finishes and I run both hands threw my hair as an unexplainable anger starts to flow threw me I didn't even get the chance to go to the stupid game and he already have a tab on me '' your joking right because this isn't funny '' I asked and she shakes her head I rock back then forth back again then I quickly walk away as people wave or try to talk to me I walk straight past them all the rage that I'm in right now is deadly one person can touch me and they'd get my fist in there face . 

The thought of Ace fucking Tucker sickens me he was the biggest mistake of my life I'd really like to know how one person can be so fucking heartless and cruel and the worst part he wont let me go . I take a seat on the bench upstairs as I overlook the school , this is the one place in this hell hole where I know that no one will look for me in face no one really knows about this place but me ... and Blake fuck , I take a deep breath as the breeze hit my face and I looked down noticing that there's a drop of water on my thigh then I touch my cheek and then realized that I was crying the topic of Ace emotionally drains me just as quick as it enrages me I thought that I had this under control by now but I don't and I might just never , the touch of someones hand on my back makes me turn around quickly and Blake takes a seat down next to me but that doesn't stop the tears but Blake uses  his thumb and wipes away the newly shed tear and I look up at him with blurry eyes '' are you okay Jessica ? '' he asks and I shake my head as the tears start flowing more rapidly '' I just want it to stop '' I breath '' it hurts so much and I won't be able to protect myself from it - I cant protect myself , I'm just gonna let it happen again it cant-'' I huff '' its okay ... its okay '' he pulls me onto his chest as I let everything out '' you don't need to protect yourself anymore Jess you have me now ... and nothing's gonna change that '' he passes hand thew my hair as I hold onto him tighter . After my little break down I probably look like a bitch to him the last thing I want is people seeing me when I'm at my weakest even though no one in theses halls knows what just happened I still feel like there judging me , I'm not one to care about what people think of me but right now that's all I can think about .

 I pull Blake to the side while still looking down at me feet '' Blake can you not tell anyone about this , it's embarrassing '' I whisper '' it happens to everyone you don't have to hide it'' he tilts my chin up so I can see his face , '' I don't care i'm not everyone , can I trust you or not '' I gripped onto his arm but my eyes never leaves his '' you -'' Jess come on were gonna be late lets go '' Ashley cuts him off and I started following her to class '' Jess !'' he shouts and I turned half my body facing him '' your still coming to the game right .... you'll get your answer then so you have no choice but to be there '' he smiles and I turn back and continue walking to my next class leaving him watching my back as I leave the hallway .