omggg
i love all of them
but you know
they probably don't love me
but that's okay
because one of them do
and i just want to be with all of them
and someone might like me
they care about me too much
i mean
i like them
but not like that
they're nice and all
but
they're kinda annoying
but we all are.
i hate it when people say someone likes/loves me
bc it's like, "don't get your hopes up,
i'll die soon
or reject you bc i'm terrified to say my real emotions
so try not to like me as much."
also,
friday,
during science
my teacher talked about the shooting
she was talking about it bc it was the school she went to for 3 years
and it really hurt her
badly
she cried when she talked about all her friends there
i wanted to cry bc it's so sad
but i didn't
i didn't want to seem weak or anything
some people were crying
then we talked about depression and stuff
i wanted to cry during that bc i'm depressed and stuff
we also talked about the shooting during homeroom bc she's also my hr teacher.
also,
thursday,
i walked
alone
my friend left and i walked alone on the busy street
it felt like everyone was looking at me
but my mom said they weren't,
i just felt like they were
and i got my shoes all wet bc of the snow
then i went to the closest walgreens
and my mom picked me up there
and i told her what happened
she was worried
i was too
and that's okay.
well
that was my week
it was very
eventful.
