HEALER (BTS Suga fanfiction)

Chapter 7

"Sorry about that"

"I apologize for my bad behavior and reckless..."

"I owe you an apology" I bowed to the picture on my computer.

I sighed, wandering if I could bring myself to actually apologize instead of acting like a politician practicing his non-apology apology.

In front of me there was a picture of Suga smiling widely and shining in his dark magenta suit, the title says 'Suga at the 31st Golden Disk Award in January 2017'

It's been a year, and his friend was already dead at that time, but whoever sees his smile would never guess that behind it lays sorrow and melancholy.

But again how many smiles and laughs are genuine in the world?

Despite that I have my own reasons to hide my identity, I still think that celebrity life is harder than we can imagine, at least I can cry and scream whenever I want, at least I don't have to force a smile because they're people watching me and expecting me to be an Eutychia.

Celebrities are humans too, and they need their space.

I suddenly feel bad for him, and that makes me want to apologize more.

I know it's hard, but it's even harder to do it to someone like Suga, constantly intimidating and sending shivers down your spine.

There are three sounds that I hate most; chalk on a blackboard, snoring and my alarm sound, which is ringing right now in my ear.

Cranky I kicked myself off the bed, it was 8:30 great I'm going to be late!

I cursed my alarm and Jihye, of course I wouldn't blame myself because we human beings are irresponsible and always blaming others for our own mistakes.

I could picture Suga's frown already, endangered I quickly put on a shower, pulled a beige dress out of my closet and matched it with a green cardigan and maroon boots, skipping the drying hair step I hurriedly took the elevator and quickly breaded my hair using its mirror.

8 :50 I found Jihye in her car, she patiently listened to my long speech on how a manager should wake up early and always be ready, luckily the routes were clear and I found myself in front of the company at 8:57, but before I put a feet outside the car Jihye stopped me "Hey Elle, I woke up at six and waited for the right time to wake you up, I wanted to call you but since you don't have a phone yet I came by your house" she paused a little, and with one brow raised she added "why didn't you tell me the new passcode?"

I mentally cursed myself "did you ring the bell?"

"More than one hundred time"

"I'm sorry, I have to go, talk later" I shamefully admitted.

I forgot that I changed the passcode, it's a habit, I change it every 3 weeks, it makes me feel safe, Jihye knows about this, but this time since my mind was busy with other things I forgot to tell her the new one.

After I ran to the studio, I stopped in front of the door to catch my breath, determined I turned the doorknob and pushed myself forward, Suga was already there sitting in front of the console, right after I put a feet inside his eyes moved from his watch to me.

He frowned but I smiled awkwardly.

"You are late by one minute" he sneered.

"It has just turned 9:01, when I got here it was 8:57 I swear" I replied in my defense, raising one hand like I'm declaring the Hippocratic Oath.

He sighed and turned his back to me as he was searching in a pile of papers, I took a seat on the couch, the same one I slept on that day.

I took off my cap and mask and straightened my back, my hands landing on my knees.