HEALER (BTS Suga fanfiction)

Chapter 14

I wondered how I am going to work with Suga after what happened yesterday, I was afraid and I was sorry.

He obviously just wanted to help me, but it's my complicated self and my trust issues that interfered in this matter, I always push people away, whether they are good or bad.

"You okay?" I looked at Jihye's concerned face, not sure of what to say or reply, so I just nodded.

"You are obviously not" she let a sigh and added," you can talk when you're ready" she smiled warmly, I love this girl, she doesn't persist and she is not the kind who asks out of curiosity, I know she only does because she wants to help.

But that doesn't stop her from dragging me to the cafeteria against my wish; she insisted that I should have my breakfast even though I have absolutely zero appetite.

We checked in and held our trays filled with food I have no intention to eat, Jihye scanned the cafeteria for a good place and apparently she found it by letting out that sound of victory she always does, I followed her gaze to the table of BTS, of course, but wait a minute, is that Suga there?

Seriously what is he doing there? For all the time I've been here He has never eaten breakfast

Should I just drop it?

But I can't avoid him forever, after all we work together.

I had no choice but to follow Jihye to their table, as soon as we approached, J-hope greeted us, "hey girls"

"Hey everyone, what's up?" Jihye cheerfully replied as always.

I scanned the table for vacant seats and luckily I found one that is the farthest from Suga, he who never raised his head once, he kept sipping on his coffee and scrolling on his phone.

Everyone was happily talking about the trip they're planning next week, or complaining about the work they still have to do.

"So Elle, how is the recording? I hope that our Yoongi isn't making work difficult on you" asked Jin while still eating his toast.

I kept looking at Suga, waiting for a reaction, but he just had his poker face on, for a moment I wondered if anything really happened or was it all in my dream.

"No, not at all" I tried to reply casually.

But nothing was normal, after all my whole life is like an odd reality show.

Everyone kept talking, laughing, eating and I was just at the extent side of the table, watching the other side where Suga was sitting, his nonchalance and his silence tortured me, I wish he would look at me once, I know I screwed it and I regret it, but I wished if he didn't give up on me easily, and I know I can't ask him to do that either.

I had enough of my thoughts, I wasn't eating nor chatting, so leaving was my best option.

I picked up my tray and stood up in a hurry, ignoring Jihye's calls after me, and everyone's stares, I just tried to shut my ears and lower my face, walking straight to my exit, straight to my relief.

Suddenly, I bumped into someone, my tray fell, and the room was filled with sounds of breaking plates and kitchen's utensils' cracks.

Every conversation was silenced and I could sense their eyes fixed on me.

I hurriedly apologized to the person in front of me, and bowed to pick up what's left of the mess I made.

"It's okay young lady"

I stopped, I froze actually, my senses wouldn't listen to me, and everything was out of control, his voice, the way he said those words, this can't be true, please don't make it true.

I can't raise my head to look at him, I'm afraid. No!

I'm terrified actually, there is no way I would forget his voice.

What if he recognizes me, I'm wearing my mask and everything has changed about me since that time, but what if he recognizes me?

My legs failed to carry me anymore, my mind refused to listen to me, I have to get out of here, but I'm paralyzed.

"Are you okay?" his voice was getting closer, he was getting closer, No stop

I started shaking uncontrollably, my teeth were shaking and my tears were rolling down my cheeks, he was getting closer and I wanted to stop him but I couldn't, my eyes searched the ground, my hands moved to my ears as if I could stop his voice.

I could sense his hand getting closer to me, in any second it would reach me, in any second the nightmare will start again.

But I couldn't move an inch, then "Elle!" Jihye's voice, jihey's body, she is hugging me, "I'm here, I'm here baby" I clung to her body like a shaking kid.

"Listen to me, you're safe now, you're safe" her whispers were softer than anytime, her arms strongly embracing my shaking body.

And I felt the time running again, it's like life is lived again, my body kept trembling under her hug, but I'm feeling safe again.

His hand stopped reaching me, I thought for a moment, and I wondered how it did, curious, I raised my tearful eyes slowly, all I could see was a male figure turning his back to me and grabbing the evil hand that was chasing me.

It was Suga!

My eyes suddenly felt heavy, and a sudden urge of sleeping overwhelmed me, I guess I'm just going to sleep for now.

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