Forever wishing on you

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Jungkook PoV

I'm in hell, it's been over a week and nothing has changed. I haven't left her side once even though I'm in nct's area I don't eat or don't drink I don't move. I stay holding her hand, I refuse to eat unless she eats I refuse to drink unless she drinks but she's not eating and she's not drinking so neither am I.
Jin:"Kookie please you need to eat come on."he says but like always I ignore him and slightly squeeze Areum hand a little. I haven't cried in the last week and I feel so heavy. I'm exhausted and drained since sleep is something I refuse to do a lot.
Jaehyun:"Jungkook I know your hurting but Areum won't want you to starve your self please eat for her."he begs making me laugh a little. Eat for her, how can I eat for her when she is not eat at all."
Jungkook:"you want me to enjoy food when she's here not eating not liven! I'm sorry but I refuse."
Jaehyun:"why is she effecting you this much?"he questions
Jungkook:"your sister jaehyun she was something more than just a friend for me. I truly felt like I was in love with her.
The first day I met her was unexpected really, she was been bother by some weird person from a different gang. Normally I would have left it alone since we all are capable of taking care of ourselves and if she came down by herself then she should be able to take care of herself but something told me go help go and speak to her. When I heard her voice something triggered me and I wanted to hear more. So I went and helped her,I was happy when she thanked me and when she smiled even though I got I trouble for running off when we had a fight but I didn't care. That same night I we met again and she,she's was I tears and it broke my heart but I didn't know why? I questioned myself over and over again why did seeing her cry effect me that way."I say with a shaking voice as tears leave my eyes. Finally I'm crying again.
Jaehyun:"Jungko-."
Jungkook:"our times together were short but I love them. One day I realised that I've fallen for nct's princess. The night we met in the garden was amazing, but even though I liked her I was scared my gang and her gang hate each other is what I thought they're not going to except us at all. Some times when I went home I pray to my parents. I begged them and apologies for falling for the enemy I-I asked them if it was okay to like her. Even though I asked them I got no sign no answer so I just let my heart do what it wants. I wasn't sure if she even liked me back but I just liked being with her you know.
I-I was happy the night we told each other our feelings because even though I knew it was wrong I wanted to be with her because at some point along the line I started to really love her. She was I the reason I smiled I was lonely you see I had my gang and friends but it wasn't enough I wanted more and she filled that hole up with her smile."I say trying to smile as I cry more it's hard talking about her when she can't even respond.
Jaehyun:"I-I didn't know you guys had that type of bond."
Jungkook:'your sister was different and I loved it every time I saw her she was in tears about something that's why when i made her mines I promised never to make her cry but I broke that promise the day I was told that her dad killed my dad. I was in conflict with myself and my feelings and mainly my heart because even though I was told that I still loved her I still wanted to be with her, I wanted to be with her even though I was told that, but I felt like I betraying my father my gang and I hurt because it was then that I realised that maybe we just aren't suppose to be together. I cried so much that day and it was because I wanted to stay, Areum was willing to lie to you all so we could be together she was the one who came up with the secret dating of course I was okay I mean I'll do anything to be with her. That day we started dating was such a good day that I would replay what happened in my head everyday. Then the day came the day after crying and being in conflict with my dad. I decided to do something I regretted as soon as she started crying. That was ending our relationship I said things that I should have said to her gang not her. So when she cried I felt broken 'what have I done' was all I could ask myself as she ran off. When I got home I cried more because I did the one thing I promise I never do and that was make her cry.
Jin:"Kookie you don't have to say anymore it's okay we understand."
Jungkook:"n-no you don't hyung you guys don't understand at all, hyung I'm in so much pain that dying would be better than feeling it. I broke her heart and mines that night but what's more upsetting is that day when they showed with her unconscious body they day I flipped hyung, just the thought that she might be dead made my stomach turn *cries harder* h-how can I live, I was getting mad why is god taken her away as well. That day I told you guys I loved her because I couldn't do anything I was completely unless but I wanted to help even if I had to beg you guys to help her I would have. I was ready for you to be mad and curse at me I didn't care if you was mad because she was all that matter. She is all that matters even if I get kicked out the gang if it's to be with her I wouldn't mine.......h-hyung I w-wouldn't mine at all. I'm so sorry............I'm so so sorry Areum I shouldn't have left until your members came back I should have walked you to them I should have not listen to you when you said go home. I don't care if I get I trouble I-I."I was unable to finish as my sobs washed my words away. I was hurting I need this but she still didn't responded I squeeze her hand again and she returns it. My eyes shoot right up to meet hers. I look into her beautiful eves as tears leave my eyes. Everyone that listen to my story was In tears.
Jungkook:"A-Areum?"I whisper to her as I hold my hand to her face, s-she's c-crying too. I move my hands to whip her tears away. I don't want to see her cry. So I smile to tell her I'm okay even though I'm not.
I'm going to help you Areum so please wait for me