This Is Us (BxB)

Disappointed

*Selfharming in this chapter*

"Well, what's up" I asked even though I, already knew what they were going to say. "Umm... well I know this will disappoint you but...umm...Allison got hit by a car today." My grandma said the last part quickly. The only thing I could think to do was cry so I fell to the ground and sobbed and sobbed. The worst part, no one came over to me to make sure I was okay, they just walked away.

I ran up to my room grabed my needle and drew big slashes against my arms and legs because I didn't know what else to do with myself

When I felt stable enough to go down stairs, I found my grandma and two sisters talking about suing someone. I saw my dad sitting on the couch staring into space, so I sat next to him, my arms and legs still burning.

"Hey dad," I said while sitting down. My dad is the only one I can talk to in this whole house. "Sup, kid" he said solemn. "Hey dad." I said almost at a wishper. Then we stayed in silence until my  grandma said "What are you two bastards doing over there?" As I said, not the nicest person. "Ohh nothing." I said to fulfill her hearts content.
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Later

"Hey, I'm going to Hazel's house." I said while walking out the door, but my oldest sister, Julia, stoped me "oh no your not." "Why not?" I asked confused. "Because your still grounded for sneaking out last week to go to hazel's" my smile droped. "W-what, come on I thought that if someone died, all punishments drop?" I said really concerned. "We did that for mom but Allison isn't that important." That really hurt. I ran upstairs and texted hazel to come over. After talking to Hazel, I fell asleep  feeling worse than ever.

When I woke up the next morning I ran to the  bathroom to throw up. When I was done hacking, I got back to bed and laid there the rest of the day only to go and use the bathroom. I didn't eat or drink anything until dinner that night.

"ALEX, DINNER."screamed Julia. "FINE" I screamed back. I got up feeling a little dizzy but got down stairs only to find like 20 people in the kitchen. "Hey what's going on?" I asked dad. "Ohh this is, it's a party to remember Allison."he responded. Oh fun.

Half way through the "party" I went upstairs to get away and found something on my bed. What, where did this come from? I picked it up and saw it was a homemade card. From who? I read it, but thought there was no name, but on the back it said
"I hope you accept my condolences"
- sincerely Jack
WHAT! You mean jack, the guy I've had a crush on for like ever, Jack(yes I'm gay.)

I went to bed as happy as ever but I knew in the back of my mind it wouldn't last forever. When I woke up the next morning I read and re-read the note that jack had left until I had to go to school.

When I got to school I got bombarded with arguments all around me I had to take some Advil that I always left in my bookbag. It was a pretty crappy day and I only enjoyed going to math because I had math with jack, so I kept looking back at him but I don't think he noticed me.

When I got home I went straight to my room, and stayed there until Julia asked if I had dinner, but I said "yes," even though I didn't, because I don't need. But she didn't believe me because I usually do lie to her about it anyhow. So we got in to this big argument an she punched me in the face and gave me a black eye, I was real pissed.

I ran up stairs, grabed my needle, and drew big slashes my arm, more than I already had and went to sleep feeling upset and like shit, so it took awhile.