Destroyed

The past.

** 4 years ago **

A moan escaped from my lips when Ashton pulled me closer to his body.

Somehow we managed to have sex in the small bathtub in our apartment. We just wanted to

take a quick bath and ended up like this. A hot mess.

''Oh fuck you feel so good'', he moaned. I love his voice its so raspy and thick when we do this.

He suddenly grabbed me by my hips to be in control. I pushed his hand away and whispered in his ear :

"No baby, today I want to control everything", I started to slowly ride him slightly pulling his hair.

,, Oh fuck you know what you are doing.. I love you... Fuck... I fucking love you" and after that he kissed me. And everytime he did this I felt the butterflys in my stomach. This boy was the one I swear..

I never felt this. He made me so happy and loved.

''Im.. gonna ahh Ashton", I stuttert. ''Come for me baby'', he told me and I came.

Seconds later he came.

For a while we didn't spoke. We just enjoyed eachother. I was in his lap, my head against his chest my arms around his waist. He played with my hair and I could see him smiling. '' You know'', I started , '' that I love you right?'' He nodded and kissed my forehead. '' Dont fucking dare to leave me okay?"

Never he whispered in my ear and pulled me closer. And I believed him.

" Mrs. Roden you need to come to the police station! Its an emergency!"

What the hell was going on? I just left Ashton to buy food and now? I drove as fast as I could to

the police station.

" Well, it's bad news." the old man spoke, " Your friend or boyfriend Ashton Irwin stabbed Mr. Michael Clifford almost to death. I mean he is not death but in the coma. Im sorry Miss."

My whole word crushed. I felt so weak. I didn't realized but tears fell down to my cheeks.

How was this this possible?

" How...how do you know that it..it was him?" My voice was so weak. And I felt like puking.

"Mr. Clifford called before the accident he said that Mr. Irwin told him to kill him if he touched you ever again."

And after that I ran. I ran as fast as I could.

** 2 Weeks later **

2 weeks were gone. I barely slept or ate anything. At least Luke and Cal supported me.

" Are you awake Holland?", Luke and Cal came into my room. I opend my eyes and nodded.

"Look H you can't do this. Its been two weeks you don't eat, talk or just do anything. I know its hard but we are here for you. Scream, shout break everything, cry just do something.", Calum said crawling into my bed. Both of them hugged me and I felt safe. For the first time in these 2 weeks.

" I just feel so empty" I said really quite. They hugged me again.

It was nice to have friends like them. We were friends since 1st grade and both of them were

like brothers to me. Luke's phone ringed he sighed but jumped out of bed. Calum pulled me closer to his body and suddenly Luke came into the room with a big smile :

" Michael... Michael is awake"

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Because I worked so hard on this!

English is not my first language soo sorry about my mistakes!