Why? // Vkook [Completed]

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Jungkooks POV

"You've been living alone? Why haven't you said anything?" I asked looking at him. "Well I didn't know when, we barely talked before the hospital." he said and sat down on the couch. "It's okay I just don't want you to be alone here." I said and sat down next to him, wrapping my arms around him. "Well I've been alone for a while now and I'm completely fine." he said and I new he was lying.

"Tae.." I whined and lifted his chin so he looked at me "I know what fine means, especially when it comes to you so I'm gonna stay here tonight and maybe tomorrow too. I really don't want you to go through this alone." I continued and a he softly started to smile "Thank you." he said before a smirk appeared on his face "Soo you'll stay the night huh." he chuckled and I blushed realizing what he meant. "Yeah, why you got any ideas?" I teased immediately regretting it as his lips bursted against my neck. "A few." he whispered in my ear which sent shivers down my spine.

"T-Tae what a-are you doing?" I stuttered, surprised I could even speak. He stopped and looked at me "What does it look like I'm doing?" he asked innocently with a smirk creeping on his face. I just stayed quiet, not knowing what to say since I've never done anything like that before. I'm still a fucking virgin.

He then got up, giving me his hand to grab. I hesitated for a moment but took his hand. He smiled at me and walked to his room, dragging me behind. He let go off my hand and closed the door, turning around with a smirk he started to walk towards me. I got nervous even more, not knowing what to do.

Before I knew it his lips were on mine. My hand traveled to his hair and started playing with it. He licked my lower lip and I slightly opened my mouth. Our tongues fought for dominance, which he won as his hands played with the hem of my shirt. I pulled away and he took off my shirt.

He traced his finger down my stomach as he pushed me on the bed. I was probably a fucking tomato which he noticed "Is it that hot in the room?" he chuckled as he slowly hovered over me. "It is when you're in it." I smirked and quickly placed my lips onto his.

He was surprised at first but he quickly kissed me back. It got even more heated but he suddenly pulled away. "Shut up, shut up, shut up." he mumbled loud enough for me to hear. "Tae?" I asked scared. "I-I can't do this just..just leave." he said louder and I froze. What the fuck? "Leave." he shouted at me and I quickly took my stuff and stormed out, confused as fuck at what happened.

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Taehyungs POV

"Stoooop." I yelled at the shadow standing in front of me. It moved closer and I tried to move but it grabbed my leg by the ankle. It's smile grew as it pulled me closer. I started kicking until it let go. "Leave me alone." I shouted at the darkness and all I could see was that white smile.

I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in. Looking for my razor, I started crying loudly. My shirt was completely wet when I finally found my razor. It was so pretty. Still shining and still clean, not used yet.

Where should I do it? Wherever the fuck you want, just do it. Yeah, okay I get it. You win, happy? Very.

I pulled my sleeve up and placed the razor a little higher then my wrist, so it wouldn't be noticeable unless I had my sleeves up. I shivered at the touch of the cold metal but soon adapted as I slowly made a line. After a second you could see a small drop of blood coming out and I cut in the same place again, which made the blood run even faster. I made a couple of more cuts around my arm, sobbing in between each one.

I took a shower, washing all the blood away when I felt my leg sting. As I looked at it I saw that I had bloody marks around my ankle. Everything got dizzy and I quickly got out off the shower. I looked in the mirror and couldn't even see. Everything was pure darkness, like the shadow got to me.

I quickly wrapped my arm and leg up with bandages and walked back to my room. It was empty. No shadow no nothing. Just the same old boring furniture. I laid in my bed and looked up at the ceiling.

Terrible mistake. It was right there, waiting for me. It got closer to me and grabbed my neck, choking me harshly. I could feel myself running out of breath when it let go. I started coughing like crazy and the shadow was nowhere to be seen. Again.

I quickly went under the covers and crawled into a bowl. My knees pressing against my chest as tears poured down my cheeks.

Why am I like this? Why? What do I have to do to make this stop? Oh honey, I can't help you. You're already broken and if you really wanna make this stop just end it. End what? Your life.

My eyes flew open. I either have to kill myself or continue to suffer. Well gee thanks what a great offer.

It's not that simple you know smart ass? And why not? Because I care about others and I don't wanna hurt them. Pha who would even miss you? They don't care about you. You're just a burden they can't get rid off. That's not true. Kookie cares. Oh your little boyfriend huh? Well does he know EVERYTHING cuz I'm pretty fucking sure he would hate you if he did.

I just sat back. No tears sliding down my cheek anymore since I've run out of shit to even cry. No nothing. I feel empty, I feel numb. But seriously why am I even alive? It's not like I'll live long anyway. People wasted so much time on me, trying to help when they have no idea, what's actually going on in my head. They are not aware of my feelings and actions, sure they ask how I am but it's just out of kindness. I mean it's not like they care because if they did they'd help already and all they do is sit back, watching me slowly break.

Even Kookie didn't do anything so why should I bother living if this is what my future is going to be like. Maybe I should just listen and end it. With that thought I fell asleep, sitting on my bed and cuddling my pillow.

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Heyoo
A little longer chapter and I hope you liked it.