Shattered glass~fillie

•life on the edge•

Millie's p.o.v~

Never in my life have I ever felt so numb before. Finn said he could give me reasons, but I doubt it. Nothing can change the way I feel about myself nor the world. I hate it, I hate me. I just want this festering wound to stop spreading, growing almost. I never saw the point in life, I always thought that I was born to die, born to keep my mother happy in her abusive relationship. Even if I die today, tomorrow, next month or next year, I will always feel the same. I am really worthless and to be honest, I am ok with that.

I woke up and picked an outfit similar to an outfit I had previously worn. It was a pinch jumper and tight ropes jeans that hugged my curves perfectly. I paired the outfit with some pick velvet shoes, the same pink colour as my jumper~

I grabbed my car keys, my bag and my coffee. I headed to my Tesla and blasted the music, trying to escape my mind.

First period was English, we have to write an essay about something or someone we love. The whole time the teacher was talking about this I felt Jacob and Finns eyes burn into my back. I didn't mind Finn but I cared about Jacob. I turned round and gave Jacob a dirty look as if to say "fuck off" and turned back around. He turned to the board and I heard Finn chuckling lightly behind me. I smiled, a genuine smile for once, but it soon went away when I remembered it was English with miss.woods. When suddenly the door opened and in cane everyone's favourite teacher, Mr. Brown! Mr.Brown is the type of teacher that wears Adidas shoes to school instead of the smart coffin cut ones, trendy am I right? "Goooood Morning class! I will be taking over for miss.woods today!" We all cheer and whoop. "Now miss.wood has told you what your doing so let's get on with it, is the top 50 tunes all right with you all?" He asked. We all said yeah in reply. He turns on the music and we start to write.

Millie browns essay on love~

Love, love is a strange thing, we either love it, or despise it. I, personally, don't know how I feel about it. I have experience it with a boy. This boy is one of my best friend, sole mate mabey. But due to my self pain, I might not see that day. But he's protecting me, saving me, I will never ever thank him enough for what he has done to save me and help me. I used to push people away, but i did that because of my father, I push people away but the sad thing is that fake friends don't even try to stay or help. But real friends keep trying until they break themselves. Truth is, I am shattered glass and no matter how many times you try to fix me I will never be the same piece of glass again. I love this boy, his brown eyes, curly hair that hangs over his eyes and the light brush of freckles over his nose. He also occasionally wears glasses, but never to school. I love this boy, He is the light in my everlasting darkness~

I smile down at my page and the bell goes, right on que. I see Finn and I see him smiling down at his page, I hope his is about me.

After my first period I walked to my locker. As I opened it a piece of paper fell out~